mothers...
Frankly, I don't where or how to start. Well, I just have. What the... how lame can I be? That aside, I have some particular matter to say here. It might be something similar to what I've wrote before.
All this while, I guess I've heard of such stories.But never had it crossed my mind that I would have to go into combat such a problem at such close quarters. One thing I hate about humans is that they are damn weird. Damn complex creatures.
She phoned me again today. It was a rather unexpected call. I didn't expect to face such a difficulty, again. This time, he really went beyond the border. I thought his mind was decent enough to actually make changes but I guess I was wrong. I'm far beyond angry. I'm too angry until I can't be angry anymore. I'm damn dissapointed. For he had not heed my advice.
Things have never been simple in life. Its not the difficulty of handling the problem itself that had caused this utmost remorse in me. Its the injustice that is shone brightly infornt of my face. It was blinding and you bet it was hurtful too. The first call was like the previous one. She enquired on his whereabouts and so on. She did asked for my help. To contact him and do whatever is necessary. Then I thought that was it. Then I decided to do just that. Little did I know that there was more to it.
So the second call came. This time, she confided in me. She cried. She was pleading me, and to a certain extent begging me. Asking for my help to change him and bring him back to properity. I said I would advice him and told her not to worry about it. He had caused her so much pain. he had actually put the other her above her. Is that the way it should be? The one who had seen you through your life till now, the one who actually made mountains of sacrifices for you and you can actually place her at the second level? And placed the girl whom you've had only known for like 3+ years before her? How could you? What's the matter with you? Do you know how remorse she was when she called me? She was freaked out and damn worried about you, do you know that? She can even praised about you when you were before the recent times. You were relatively good. And the fact that she cried and confided in ME...of all people...ME...not that I don't want to listen...but ME? A person whom have no blood relation to you and your family. An outsider. Meaning she really, badly need my help. It seems that she got no one else to turn to except for me.
My mind went blank for a moment when she started to talk about it. Subsequently, I began to feel some of her pain too. Maybe it was transferable via the optic fibres that connects the phone. Oh wait...I was using my handphone. Ok...nevermind about that. But yes...I could actually sense her sadness and grieve. She brokedown. Cried. And I felt like crying too. In between, I remembered my own mom. It was a heart throbbing taliking session. I was mute at that point of time. I've no idea on what to say. A mother actually confided in me, someone who is of no close relation. Oh my god...while I'm writing this, I'm listening to ''Bila Rindu'' by Ruffedge. Damn touching song. Love it a lot. Especially when the lyrics has got some connection with me. Ok..back on the topic. Ya..so basically I was truly dissappointed. I nearly brokedown and cried too.
In the beginning, I've actually thought about the things that have been revolving around me. I finally decided that I've to heck care a few things. And he was actually one of them. I thought, I won't let him mangel with my life anymore. And so he was brought down to the rank of only an aquantaince. It was close enough to enemy but I've made a promise not to have anyone in there as far as possible. So now, out of mercy, and because of his mother and the injustice brought across, I can't blind pass this matter. I've to settle it. It's too obvious that it's up to me to deal with this. I hope I can quickly settle this but I don't think that it will be solved in the near future. It'll take time...I hate this. But I have to do it. If not who will? Anyway, I'll be irresponsible if I don't so this. Anyway....Shit.
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Wonderful little things have happened this week. The link between her and me had miraculously been made much clearer to the class. I've nothing much to bother.I mean it's not a crime to like her, is it?
[Monday]
Brought the thing to school. People around me get to know it since they read it while taking the sweets. Hahahaz..yum yum. What Hamidah said at the study session today strucked me. Even though I've so called thought of it before. Anyway, I got to realize why 'o' levels means so much to me. It's not really the grades. Anyway the question kept ringing in my ears...'' What's there after 'o' levels?''
[Tuesday]
It was highlighted during PE. Well, what was I supposed to do? Carry her? Hahahaz...I was kinda crazy anyway today...dunno why. Math lesson. One special one. I think Ms Chua knows it too. Hahahaz...3 pairs.
[Wednesday]
CME period. Well...it happened because you asked that question to Mdm Ros. Then she relate to me. Hahahaz..anything that has got to do with marriage and whatever it is, I'm always the first one to get it. Mdm Ros was like being able to read the situation. I got teased to the max...Hahahaz
Hmm..pretty cool stuff...small, cute memories. I love to sleep with them everyday.
::: Everyone knows it? Like I care... :::
All this while, I guess I've heard of such stories.But never had it crossed my mind that I would have to go into combat such a problem at such close quarters. One thing I hate about humans is that they are damn weird. Damn complex creatures.
She phoned me again today. It was a rather unexpected call. I didn't expect to face such a difficulty, again. This time, he really went beyond the border. I thought his mind was decent enough to actually make changes but I guess I was wrong. I'm far beyond angry. I'm too angry until I can't be angry anymore. I'm damn dissapointed. For he had not heed my advice.
Things have never been simple in life. Its not the difficulty of handling the problem itself that had caused this utmost remorse in me. Its the injustice that is shone brightly infornt of my face. It was blinding and you bet it was hurtful too. The first call was like the previous one. She enquired on his whereabouts and so on. She did asked for my help. To contact him and do whatever is necessary. Then I thought that was it. Then I decided to do just that. Little did I know that there was more to it.
So the second call came. This time, she confided in me. She cried. She was pleading me, and to a certain extent begging me. Asking for my help to change him and bring him back to properity. I said I would advice him and told her not to worry about it. He had caused her so much pain. he had actually put the other her above her. Is that the way it should be? The one who had seen you through your life till now, the one who actually made mountains of sacrifices for you and you can actually place her at the second level? And placed the girl whom you've had only known for like 3+ years before her? How could you? What's the matter with you? Do you know how remorse she was when she called me? She was freaked out and damn worried about you, do you know that? She can even praised about you when you were before the recent times. You were relatively good. And the fact that she cried and confided in ME...of all people...ME...not that I don't want to listen...but ME? A person whom have no blood relation to you and your family. An outsider. Meaning she really, badly need my help. It seems that she got no one else to turn to except for me.
My mind went blank for a moment when she started to talk about it. Subsequently, I began to feel some of her pain too. Maybe it was transferable via the optic fibres that connects the phone. Oh wait...I was using my handphone. Ok...nevermind about that. But yes...I could actually sense her sadness and grieve. She brokedown. Cried. And I felt like crying too. In between, I remembered my own mom. It was a heart throbbing taliking session. I was mute at that point of time. I've no idea on what to say. A mother actually confided in me, someone who is of no close relation. Oh my god...while I'm writing this, I'm listening to ''Bila Rindu'' by Ruffedge. Damn touching song. Love it a lot. Especially when the lyrics has got some connection with me. Ok..back on the topic. Ya..so basically I was truly dissappointed. I nearly brokedown and cried too.
In the beginning, I've actually thought about the things that have been revolving around me. I finally decided that I've to heck care a few things. And he was actually one of them. I thought, I won't let him mangel with my life anymore. And so he was brought down to the rank of only an aquantaince. It was close enough to enemy but I've made a promise not to have anyone in there as far as possible. So now, out of mercy, and because of his mother and the injustice brought across, I can't blind pass this matter. I've to settle it. It's too obvious that it's up to me to deal with this. I hope I can quickly settle this but I don't think that it will be solved in the near future. It'll take time...I hate this. But I have to do it. If not who will? Anyway, I'll be irresponsible if I don't so this. Anyway....Shit.
===================================================================
Wonderful little things have happened this week. The link between her and me had miraculously been made much clearer to the class. I've nothing much to bother.I mean it's not a crime to like her, is it?
[Monday]
Brought the thing to school. People around me get to know it since they read it while taking the sweets. Hahahaz..yum yum. What Hamidah said at the study session today strucked me. Even though I've so called thought of it before. Anyway, I got to realize why 'o' levels means so much to me. It's not really the grades. Anyway the question kept ringing in my ears...'' What's there after 'o' levels?''
[Tuesday]
It was highlighted during PE. Well, what was I supposed to do? Carry her? Hahahaz...I was kinda crazy anyway today...dunno why. Math lesson. One special one. I think Ms Chua knows it too. Hahahaz...3 pairs.
[Wednesday]
CME period. Well...it happened because you asked that question to Mdm Ros. Then she relate to me. Hahahaz..anything that has got to do with marriage and whatever it is, I'm always the first one to get it. Mdm Ros was like being able to read the situation. I got teased to the max...Hahahaz
Hmm..pretty cool stuff...small, cute memories. I love to sleep with them everyday.
::: Everyone knows it? Like I care... :::