Shacked. War. War with my worst enemy. The Z monster!!! Arghh...fighting to stay awake...I need to write it all down here or else i'll forget about them...i got old brain...very absent-minded.

A lot has been happening. I somehow excluded some of them from my previous entries. So that's it. I've set my mind. This week shall be a good one. Spirits will be mantained at its optimum level.

Let's touch on the things that i don't really want to talk about first. i don't want to indulge in them...its unhealthy for my mind and body. I'm facing with a dilema. Its' either values or answers. I know the correct answer. I know. but then its quite painful for me. This is like a golden chance. But I guess i just have to let it go. Nevermind, if that's the way it should be...then let it be...Hmmm..sacrifices. Neverending. It's become one of the food in my drawers. Bleah...tastes like veges..why? Cuz i don't really like veges...hahaz..

And you...hey, if you want to lie to me..that's your problem. But don't lie to yourself. You ah...Aiya..i don't know what to say...are you trying to make me jealous or somethimg? hey, you're lucky its me..if you still like her or whatever crap it is...then just face it...i may be wrong or right in this..don't cheat your own feelings. Yar u can differ your actions but i hope you'll be true to yourself...I don't know what's your motif you know..fuelling my anger...bah...i ain't gonna bother...and please lar...i don't think or rather i KNOW that i'm not great juz because i got her...ok? huh..i'll be satisfied if i dismiss this matter with the word...''bullshit''..not that it means or apply anything to what i'm saying earlier on..but i just like it...its sort of my style..a bad and ugly one...

Ok...now to the healthier stuff....went to suntec city yesterday...watched ''hitch''. shall talk about that later..the most vivid memory that I actually have is the frame of time before the movie...hahahz..nvm if you don't understand...hmm..thanks bro..really appreciated it...what a nice present for me..hahaz..wah..kind of unlucky for my first time going out with you( as in only e 2 of us)...got ''jet'' or ''conned'' before meeting u...i'm so blur...then..was rushing rushing...lucky im not late...then when rushing rushing i hurt my feet..oww...lucky pain for a while only...hmm..can't help but to notice something about you...i'm not going to say anything...hahaz..dun worry lar..nothing big...oh yar...then the most ''suay'' thing happened...met my relative...on my father's side one..i think they didn't saw us lar...i really hope so..if this gets to my parents, im so going to feel bad about it unless they don't mind about it..oh manz...sort of bad luck....hahaz..

oh yar..so watched ''hitch'' the movie kept me rocking on my chair..laughing away...really..the show was really humorous...go catch it..i think i'll buy the vcd..hahaz..it was really meaningful..the message that the show wanted to really bring across was kind of towards the end of the story. at least that's what i think...hahazz..didn't waste money on some good movie..

ok so i shall record history down here...RI's goalpost finally got shotgunned by CSS..specifically by CHAN HEI WAI!!!!!! that was a nice one bro...hahaz...but so sad...we conceded one..but you made history man...or rather..we did it...now more insights towards the clsoe-to-wonderful game. oh yar...we drew with RI, 1-1, that's the history...

Oh my god...it was pretty bad...there was like an air raid at CSS 's own half...i was in it...bombarded by shells, grenades, bullets and what have u..BUT..the defence was solid, concrete..i was kind of delighted by their play..yeah..it was pretty bad back there...RI players darting around making our lives damn tough...they took like a thousand and one shots at goal. we didn't allow it to get in. we dispel them. we defended. we hold on...persevere...and wallah we got a draw..a remarkable achievement...considering we lost a match to them last year and the scoreline was 4-0..it was worth getting hurt..my sacrifices didn't amount to nothing..thanks guys..you people rock...hmm...desperate measures..rings a bell omar? hahaz..yeah..i feel so happy..partly bcause of what i did...today..i made my longest run upfront..and it's in a game with great opponents such as RI..i feel good..and it was nearly a goal...not me scoring lar..i mean i passed succesfully to the striker but he didn't managed to convert it. I was so near to RI's 25 yard line..that's like at their first quarter of the pitch...yesh!!! hahaz..RI's not so great after all...it's all in the mind.

Somehow, this tournament had made me ralize something. i learnt to be happy for my friends and not get jealous with them..really...it was something i never thoght of before..I should learn from them...im happy for tuck wen, hei wai and timothy..they did well..contributed to the team a lot..i salute you people...For this match...i want to really thank my fellow defenders...namely..omar,shahid,johnathan teo, and the man...TIMOTHY!!! OUR GOALKEEPER!!!...I tell you..he was magnificent today...he saved a lot...at times 3 consecutive shots...he's really good today..keep it up man...im so happy for you..wow..you're amazing..looks like my trust have not gone to waste..even though we conceded one...believe me..ur saves today was more than enough to cover the debt. Good one bro..

my goal for this match was actually 0 concedes..but then..the top performance was there today. We weren't thrashed. Not even a lost. I don't care. This time the fame shall go to the defenders...hahaz..i'm so lame...but yeah..i'm so proud of them...i just pray hard that we'll win when against jurong west later the day after tomorrow..we opened the door a bit for us to reach top four...wow...

::: In order to be champions, we have to beat the champions :::