Eh...didn't realize I haven't update for 5 days...it felt like just a 2/3 days before...indeed time is racing pass me... have to get doing to business..serious business....


Ok..so the first week of school is alrite...still thinking or considering having other commitments...like joining hockey and the student union...people say, year 1 is still manageable but come year 2, the going get's tough, and the tough get's going.... :(


Anyways, let's talk about now. Hmm..yesterday went down to HQ, for nothing....except for meeing friends and stuff...there was some stupid miscommunication and in my opinion there's that someone to blame and it was the wrong person who said sorry. What the cock...no cock up cannot, very sian....!#^^#^$##@#@@@**&(&(&(


But then, get to meet the peeps from the CLT course... so in the end, it was still ok. Not too bad. But I just hate it when time is wasted. So after we were informed that our attendance were not required, we set off form Amoy Quee and went for lunch in smaller groups. Met Chee Meng and Hassan at YCK MRT...so after that, with a few others, went to Causeway Point to eat at the foodcourt. That was where it all began. The talk about chio gals...started scanning around but somehow my radar kena jammed because there was just too many people...lolx...anyway, we squeezed most of our way through and finally got a seat for ourselves....then we just eat and talked crap, about politics and stuff...and of course not missing out, the gals....while eating also wanna scan around....haha...ok la...nothing much to see...then after eating, we were so sain that we walked around just for the sole purpose of looking out for potential targets...this kinda thing really makes me laugh sia...like what the hell? Walking around in search for girls?? Hahaha...then can give rating so more...wahaha..so bad rite?


Oh ya, then one of us brought up the matter regarding regional girls...

The question was:

Are there more chio bus in the EAST as compared to the WEST?


Well, trully speaking, that was what my heart feels but then thinking back...it can't really be determined and to me, its nonsensical to believe that beauty are subjected to certain regions...and to add on, beauty is itself subjective, right? So ya...how to come to a definite conclusion.....only God can do that...lolx....


And then after that, we headed home...and on the MRT, saw Jasmine and her Innova peeps and to my surprise, Li Xin was there too...I have not met him since our PSLE sia...yeah, he was my classmate...always get bullied by the other guys...hahaz...anyway, Jas got injured...fractured her fingered or something....hope she recovers soon and then and then..lolx..can't remeber what I wanted to say....


Oh ya...the situation was kinda uneasy for me...because, I was basically 'torn apart'...lolx...how do I say it? ok la...after reaching JE, then I was 'pulled' to Jasmine, Li Xin and a fell Xingnanian...and I had to 'leave' my friend from the CLT course....so like...a bit not nice la...then...we boarded the train to Boon Lay, and to my amazement, so 2 other guys from my syndicate...wah seh...difficult difficult...how to entertain more than 1 grp of friends at one go??? Hope none of them got offended...if they did, at the very most I can offer is just an apology..... :(


Anyway, after that, went out again to go Bugis with Suhaimi, a friend from the CLT course...and I thought he's close firend was my close firend once...because they both ahve the same name and from the same scondary school...anyway, I got the wrong guy but hey, another new friend! hahaz....And then was introduced to another 2 guys, or rather twins....Anwar and Azhar.....yup...and yeah, we had alot of fun spending the evening together...we went to ZAM ZAM for dinner, it has been decades since I went there....and yeah, the food there is good...anyway, I was hungry so I just whacked the food la...like not caring for anything in the world...then walk walk and saw my cousin, lolx...I rarely see any relatives when going out with my friends that's because I rarely go out...lol...


And my, the crowd there was really hmm... alot of people la basically....went around looking for Suhaimi's bag and then yeah at around 9, we set off for home...


A bunch of great lads...haha...new friends by accident...haha :)


And for today, went to Johor...nothing much....hmm ya...tt's it lo...


One day of extra weekend. Thank god it existed. If not this entry won't be here...


Some people are just so kanchiong...and I just so hate them.

Yesterday was my first day in school... hmm..not bad for a start...just that there's a lot of admin things to do...need to buy this la...get that la...what more I'm the kuku class rep...luckily I'm not bombarded with a lot of work yet...


I find that I'm starting to like my campus and that the journey to school isn't really that long...well, Singapore is small no matter how much shit they pile to increase the square meters. Though my school is relatively far as compared to others, I don't find it a disadvantage for me.


The people there at Temasek are rather friendly on the whole. On my first day, while exploring the place alone before meeting up with Kenny, I chanced upon a lecturer there and we exchanged a few words. Then I met some other NCC guys form the CLT course and yeah...the place is just vibrant.


My timetable is ok for now. Infact, I like my timetable. Somehow, I feel that time is moving faster than before. The longest day for me will be on thursdays....lessons start at 9 and end at 5. That's like freaking long but then, the next day is a Friday. Meaning school ends at 12. And after that, my weekend starts off...Even though Thursday is a tiring day, I could look forward to the next day and knowing that my weekends are around the corner, I won't feel so bad. :)


Lessons are pretty interesting. Some are repetitions of sec school's work but I don't mind because I myself need to refresh my mind. What more, due to some personal reason, I couldn't really store those bits of information into my mind. What a waste.


I think studying in poly will be my cup of tea. And I like the normal academic system of having tests and exams and coursebooks. Based on a friend who went to MI for the first 3 months, it is similar to a JC life with lectures, tutorials and exams. If tests and exams don't exist how in hell are we going to assessour capabilities? I just find them necessary.


Now my target is to be able to take the Aerospace Engineering option next semester because that's the reason why I chose to come to TP to do Mechatronics. Hopefully I could. I started with the right mindset and spirit so hopefully things will go the way I want it to.


Today, I saw more pretty girls as compared to yesterday. But then, I was thinking, how in hell can I get to know them when I don't even know which school of study they are from? Well, one, I could just go up to them. And two, participate in more of TP's activities and big events. And I think I'll pick the latter. :) Whatever it is, my aim of going to go to school is to study. So ya, for that other aspect of my life, I'll just leave it to nature to steer the way. I just don't want history to repeat itself.


Oh ya, about the lessons...I'll continue from just now. Maths is back to haunt me!!!! LOLX...But I'm not that afraid because I've undergone A-maths lessons before so, it should be ok since some will be repetitions. Just now the lecture on Digital Fundamentals was interesting. Learned on Binary Systems and at some point...everyone became confused. Read some more of the other coursebooks and I found this thing which has a sort of farnie name...its BOOLEAN'S EXPRESSIONS....hmm what does it look like? Like this, O__0""??? Ok the temperature's dropping...


So ya, that's roughly it...I hope I can start playing hockey soon...my hands are getting itchy seh...my eyes are getting sore eyes because I can't see the pitch yet I know its a throw stone's away...my legs are getting cramps because I've not been running...my mouth is swelling because I can't shout with a valid reason...and worst of all...my stick is rotting cause it can't hit those motherf*****g ballS !!!!!!!


You don't have to carry my hairy balls. Pardon me for the foul language.... :P

WOOOHOHHOOHOHOHHHO!!!!! NCC CLT COURSE COMPLETED!!!


Yeah...this week had been rather happening....yesterday was our night the 51st's night....we practically rocked the MPH like nobody's business...lolx....


so yup...on wednesday went for the poly orientation and missed a lot of stuff on camp...sian ah...missed life firing...wanted to go for it la but sadz...time won't allow it...anyway, the orientation was kinda boring, except for the cheers and dance...maybe it was because it was only on the first day...so my class is mostly boys, only 1 girl. About 20 people altogether and so coincidentally got one guy with a similar name as mine. His name is SHAMIL and mine is SYAMIL....so ya...then kena labelled S-sq...lolx...then got another coincidence...me and Kenny got into the same class....MTN: 609....and I was also appointed the class rep. very the wad lor....they were like trying to get votes and everyone else got nil and me 2. kukunut....then the only girl in class, Joyce, was arrowed to be the treasurer....so that is some summary on my orientation....not a pretty great one but then it can't be helped....


Have to get used to the journey to school....not that bad in a sense that the chances of having a place to sit is pretty high...no need to worry about crowds.... :)


then back to camp the next morning....booked in and started the day with some running around the camp...it feels great to run with the guys...in big groups...there's this some sort of sense of belonging...it started the day off pretty well...then had GMK test.....though I didnt study much...still passed...anyway...everyone passed...all above 30 marks out of 40...I got 34....it was relatively easy though some of the questions caught me off guard...then had lunch after which we proceeded to the theaterrete for course debriefing....award winners were announced...happy for the recepients...and I was glad that Arun got the Distinguished Honours Graduand award...I mean, he really deserved it...I don't see anyone else who could take his place....as for the rest...I won't comment...hahaz....and then I think before dinner, we had a short rehearsal on the performance for Major chua to see...had negative feedback and yeah....other things which happened are rather confidential, censored and is classified under top military secret....wahaha....can't say it here la....later kena...


So the next day was a full day of preparation for the Passing out Ceremony that night...Started with uniform inspection...RSM didn't say much about my turnout except that he said he liked my peak cap...because its new....I don't know how new it was but it is definitely a few years...anyway...after that went through the proceedings over and over again....very sian...a around 4+, we were sent back to our bunk to relax and prepare ourselves for the event....


Everyone was happy....well, we were about to gett our ranks...who wouldn't be happy? And yeah....spirits were very high...practically everyone was on the ball...It was a hell of a night...the performance was not done as expected....not for my syndicate but for the others...anyway...that aside...everyone was enjoying themselves tremendously...I knew I did...taking pictures...meeting with some old friends....I think got a number of chio bus...but not interested la...was very high....going really crazy....


Finally at around ten plus...everything ended...a lot of the guys about 30 of them booked out for one reason or another....and so my bunk was like half empty....left only about 6 guys...that was the best night for me...cause we really had free talk time...as in all of us were in the same synidicate and ya...no interruptions basically....we shared our opinions and basically just talked crap and rubbish..haha...let me see who were there...


1. chee meng

2. jian zhi

3. ming wei

4. hassanoor

5. anthony

6. me


Ya...so we finally went to bed at around 12...and there was the issue on dinner...settled it I guess and our guys also suddenly unofficially became S4...which is logistics....haha...


And today, had flag day....pretty...err....sian la...don't want to talk about it...


So that was the end of the course....had a lot of memories for the past two weeks....going to embark on new responsibilities...new appointments....new people....new environment...just hope that I'll adapt soon enough...


Had a lot of fun and laughter...scoldings all that...but in the end...I think everything is okay....despite the negatives....no hard feelings...just plain good friendships....


Our instructors were great la....I think we were blessed to be under them, we really had a lot of privileges....as compared to other syndicates....would just like to thank SCLT Azmi, SCLT Eric and SCLT Ying Bei...who had stayed by our side leading us well...*SALUTES*..... :)


I think warrant kitto should have some gratitude too, at least form me....though hie talked cock alot...but what he says most of the time makes sense....want to know his e-mail? it is kitto@fu(k) ...well that was what he told us....lolx...and I his fav. phrase recently was..." You are a failure!!!"...Whatever.... :)


So yah...i think I'll list down some of the nick names we came out with for each other....I don't have one...haha... :P


1. Terrence - Tiffany

2. Hyen Yu - Man U

3. Anthony - Tak Som Bong

4. Suhaimi - Tsunami

5. Chee Meng - S4

maybe there were more la nut I cant' remember....


Oh ya, one more thing....when I came back on thursday, I got to know that the instuctors was informed of my blog entries a few days ago..regarding the first week of camp......what the toots lor....i was surpirised la...maybe as i'm typing....there are here....lolx...heck la...this blog is for the public lor...but I was just surprised...who was that bugger seh..kukunathan.....and no la...where got emotional, for that entry...haiyo...like tt also emotional meh? LOLX.......



Ok la...tomorrow is my bro's birthday....bringing him to JP to buy his present....


AND YEAH...S1 ROCKSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wondering why I'm here now? Guess what, I sneaked out of camp!!!! So pro rite, wahaha...i got pass the security....hmm...well, what can I say, I'm just applying the knowledge ncc has passed on to me...wahaha...yeah...so glad to be home now.... :)


































Ok...the above was just a bunch of crap....lolx...got to book out tonight because have to go orientation tomorrow...so ya, after that...book in again...so far...everything is ok....not as stressful as the first week...this course had been enriching and after this, I'm more encouraged and motivated to involve myself in HQ because I can be certain that I'll gain some knowledge by committing myself to NCC.....


The coming highlight for me now is the trip to US, South Carolina...for some exchange programme...just have to pay 500 plus bucks...so worth it rite? its in june lo...hmm..want to go but that kind of money...hmm...dunno leh...i'm not rich man's son lo....haiz...


So ya...i better hit the bed soon...got to wake up early tomorrow....hmmm..i wonder what the guys at camp are doing now....maybe they having blanket party....hahakz.... :)

Alrite...all nearly set for tomorrow...after blogging...going to wrap things up...had a pretty wonderful weekend with my extended family and cousins...though they were like the prime reason why I had to rush my work...


And yeah..nothing much to talk abotu because I can't keep that day off my mind...that graduation day lo!!!...I mean, I can't wait to work with the rest for that day...we have to hold an item also so we were already throwing in the songs into the pot...we'll come to a decision soon...


here are some of the songs which were thought of:


1: My Lover by James Blunt


2: Good Times by Tommy Lee


3: Collide by Howie Day


and several more....lolx..can't remember...anyway, I thought a more funkier song would be good cause then we can dance a bit...there's like 30 of us..so yeah..we'll just see what my syndicate will decide on...


ok....have to stop myself...before leaving the virtual world for another 5 days plus, would like to post this song....its great to listen to...haha... :)


Hope I won't get out of course...

Anthony Costa- Do you ever think of me


Do you ever wonder
What sky I'm lying under
Does your heart remember
How we used to feel
When it used to think of me


All I need to know
When you're on your own
Do you miss what might have been


World don't stop turning
Stars don't stop falling down
In my world of make believe
Do you ever think of me


We got different stories
And all our never endings now
Even thought your heart is free
Still my heart wont let me be
Do you ever think of me


So we're on different shores
Do we just drift away
Do the memories fall
Like a driving rain


All I need to know
When you're on your own
Do you miss what might have been


World don't stop turning
Stars don't stop falling
downIn my world of make believe
Do you ever think of me


We got different stories
And all our never endings now
Even thought your heart is free
Still my heart wont let me be
Do you ever think of me


Do you ever think of me (x2)

Another song...lolx..Good Times by Tommy Lee

" Good Times"(feat. Butch Walker)

Put down the magazine and get off the phone

Cuz theres a place I wanna show u and it wont take long

Take a ride

Take a ride

Its lookin like we're getting there

Over here, comin clear

Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes

Just good times

Just good times

Take me away

To a place where the good times good times roll

Don't let me stay

In a place where this hate can steal my soul

Got myself worked up over nothing today

All this trash in my head I gotta throw it away

Its alright

Its alright

Its lookin like we're getting there

Over here, comin clear

Place that has no rhymes, or times, or crimes

Just good times

Just good times

Take me away

To a place where the good times good times rol

lDon't let me stay

In a place where this hate can steal my soul

This is it, I'm finally here

And all the blurry lines are clear

And everything that I cant see

Seems to make more sense to me

Why the hell cant I just let it go, let it go, yeah

Take me away (away)where the good times good times roll (roll)

Don't let me stay (stay)where this hate can steal my soul

Let the good times roll

Let the good times roll (take me away)

Let the good times roll (take me away)

Let the good times roll

Passed the what I call the first phase of CLT course. Feeling rather relaxed now that I'm at home...a lot of stuff had undergone so I'll just ry to recall some of them...


First day, woke up at 5+...washed up...went out of house at around 6...was desperately trying to get a taxi...finally got 1....reached yio chu kang at about 0650hrs...met 2 new guys der...arun and haikal...and at around 7...made our way to camp....


entered camp....eevn before we started moving to 246...already kena shouted at....reached der...it was a din with people shouting, scolding all over the place...basically chaos...at that starting minute of the course, we were already getting farked....well...not a pretty good start I guess...


I was allocated to Syndicate 1....SCLT Ying Bei asked for a volunteer to become IC...at first nobody wanted to sacrifice themselves but as she was about to scold the existing platoon for not taking the initiative to volunteer, this dim-wit guy called Syamil raised up his hand and hollered " YES MA'AM! "...and that...was the start of my 3 days of hell as and IC of syndicate 1....oh my, the shit is on the way....


so that morning shouted and shouted the commands...taking charge of my platoon...everyone was blur including me...its like about a year plus since I last took Command and Control of a group of men....sian...got scolded by the PCs..dunno how many times....basically its because I sux la...sianz...


then after all admin stuff was settled....went to MPH I think...for lunch....can't remember what food it was...and then went on to theaterrete...for talks and stuff....then at 5 had dinner....can't remember the sequence of events la...the first day was sucky on the whole....


I think it was this day that I got really pressurised...squeezed like nobody's business....or was it Tuesday? Anyway...all I remebered was the scoldings for the first 2 days...then a marked of history....got shouted at by the PC...SCLT Azmi...it was really a shout la...at the MPH...I must have sux to the core lo...it was the second time since the last occasion I got shouted...that was in school during one of the NCC trainings...got shouted by CLT Alan at the parade sq in front of everyone...ya....it was very stressful becoming the IC...basically everyone is pushing you..be it the instructors...the CUOs, CSMs, 2ICs...who are all my course mates...why they pushed me was because they were themselevs pushed by the instructors...so can't really blame them....on the first 2 nights I couldn't sleep well...was thinking of how bad the day was...felt very down...haha...and either nights, was thinking of what SCLT Azmi had told me in the morning.... "If you make one more mistake, I'll throw you out of the course..." he pulled me aside and said that to me personally....after that onwards, I felt damn demoralised...lolx...because its like, am I ging to be out -of-course( OOC)? The situation was unpredictable la...that's why I felt kinda shitty...


BUT.....my coursemates...or rather...my platoonmates, saved me.....these guys gave me the encouragement and I was like surprised at what they said to me....here are some of their words...the ones in malay translated to english...


"wah, how you endured it seh...when he shouted at you, I myself inside the platoon was startled...you just take it la...these type of things just let it run through ur ears..."


" hey, why look so stressed ic? relax la....all the scoldings are normal one la...relax la.."


" Good job mil, serious...if it was me, I don't think I could do it.... "


so ya...I think they said some other things too la...but I can't remember....they really showed care and concern an although it was just like 48 hrs....it seems like we have been friends for years....the bond among my paltoonmates were pretty strong....


I really thank these guys for having encouraged me...helping me to stay on....guys like Chee Meng, Shankra, Hisyam, Hassan, Noorhassan, adha, iman...and the other guys......and of course the 3 gals in the platoon...aisyah....shi ling...hyen yu....these people were there for me....keeping me cool....thanks a lot guys....haha....


And on the 3rd day, I lost my voice already....one of the worst sore throats that I ever had...sux man...had to make extra effort to give out commands...felt quite painful...and ya...in the mornings...had lectures by various people...about various stuff....oh yar, on second day, had orienteering trainings....in the afternoon...ya....so back to third day...lectures again in the morning, some NE talks...bla bla bla...then Basic Instructor Course came in after lunch...missed the chance to do archery....second time liao...because rain lo....the other time during camp feast....the same thing happened lo...what the hell....


then at the end of third day, it was before dinner...i was in the verge of giving up already cuz...my voice was really getting weaker and softer....when I talk its too soft and the loudest volume would be when I'm shouting...so its like my volume is on both ends...ither loud or too soft....so then at the MPH, after much thought, decided to just asked SCLT Azmi....why am I the only IC who had been holding on to the post for 3 days....for the rest the max was like 2 days...so I was quite surprised...then you know what he said...ok la...i'll just lay out the conversation that took place...it was between me, SCLT Azmi and SCLT Ying Bei...


Me: Sir can I ask something? Why am I the only IC for 3 days?


SCLT Azmi: That's for me to know and for you to find out...


SCLT Ying Bei: Huh? what did he ask again?


SCLT Azmi: He asked why is he the IC for 3 days...


SCLT Ying Bei: Orh...because we like your face ( I pretended not to hear and inside me I was like -_-" )


SCLT: You really want to know why or not? Its because you are going to pack up your things...


Me: Oh...( I was like haiz...sure kena kick out one...die la...going home...)


SCLT Azmi: You know for what or not?


Me: Go home.....


SCLT Azmi: No...its because you are going to sleep with me....


Up to that point...I beacame blur as ever....anyway....just before dinner was served....I was relieved of my duty as IC and Shankra took over...I felt happy as a bird...finally....


till now, I still dunno whatl's the reason behind me being the only one holding on to an appoinment for three miserable days...but then I concluded that it should be one of the following reasons...


1. I just sux and they want me to suffer more and asses me further....OR


2. I'm good and they want me to carry on being the IC but noticing that I lost my voice and after I bring up the matter...they just let me go...


So ya...its a double edge sword....its either good or bad...dunno lah...i heck care already...sianz.....


so the 4 days had been both terrific and bad....made new great friends...got screamed at....rushed meals....


Left with 5 more days...hopefully, I won't get OOC...pray hard....


Oh ya...I must say this....the warrant officers are really farnie manz...its great to have them around...like 1WO Kitto, warrant officer thomas...and so on...


and ya...the passing out ceremony is confirmed...its on the 21st of april...at around 6 in the afternoon...so if you are reading this, and is interested in attending, just contact me lo...


other than that....nothing else....


LEAD THE WAY, ALL THE WAY 51ST!!!!

Perhaps one more entry before I get thrown into camp...a lot of things have been on my mind and yeah...that's good...because these things are worth contemplating on..rather than on other stuff which will only in the end make me feel lousy and ya...bleah....anyway...feelng kinda liberated too... these days...it's time to get my life back on track....



On thursday was my last day of work...a mixture of sadness and happiness...haha....sad because I had to leave my friends happy because I can finally moe back to ''my own world''....


Anyway, the most of the guys there had been great... a bunch of wackos....always talking about women...haha...and ya...going to list some things that I remember....


1) Kopi Poh/teh katai- kopi/teh potong kaki


2) Air buah straw daging....


3) Sam-pang


4)Bayang-bayang


5) poly- clinic???


6) 6:03



yeah...though work can be monotonous sometimes...had spent funny moments with my colleagues and criticizing each other....making fun of each other....and on the day before, the guys there were on the verge of 'pau to'-ing sam...cuz he went out to buy toto at around 2 plus and what made the guys angry is because before that, he had scolded the guys including me for taking long breaks....well, in the end they did'nt complain to the manager...haha....dunnno why....in my opinion...sam lacks work ethics...and work management....his way of doing things is just in disarray....no planning of some sort...in fact.. its not only him but the whole management....as workers...the guys there can't be bothered already...what's most important to them is that they bring home enough money to feed themselves and their families...


So after work, went home with Faris and then decided to had a cup of coffee at kopitiam at Bukit Batok...and he shared his past experiences wth me and told me a thing or two about his friends too...and yeah...pretty interesting....he had told me that he intended to take some course in logistics at BMC....hope he do well...and then earn some extra money to support his family...


well, that's it about my 3-mths plus stint at Marshall.....they're shifting to Senoko somewhen in the middle of this year...don't know if I'm coming back to the company again...don't really have any plans for that at the moment...I want to accomplish whatever I've set out to do first...


and then yesterday, went to School of Military Medicine at Nee Soon Camp as part of the CLT course... I can say the SMM looks kinda grand...and as I saw the front building, my thoughts was like...wow....went there for the CPR course...very exciting and haha...humourous too....especially some of the warrant officers...they are among the most experienced people in the army....and yeah..it wasn't so dull...and finally, had some proper training on performing the CPR...earned the Heartsavers cert. well, it looks like a coupon to me...haha...valid for 2 years...and then i can choose to go for the refresher course and extend the period of validity...meet up with oter CDTs from other parts of Singapore....and yeah...got to know this guy who already earned an airborne and divers badge...that is like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool man....I tell you its not some normal, NCC badge...its a badge which is from the SAF itself...so ya...if you earned one...its kinda something...especially at a young age...and the requirements are not that simple...its alot of hard training and for the airborne badge...the last stage of requirements will be handled by the Commandos....so you really have to have the stuff do jump out of the airplane you know.....hopefully, I can't get one of those airborne badge....I find it pretty special...


2 weeks more before Poly starts...hope to last for the 3 whole years at Temasek....it's going to be a hell of a time.....


Punctuality is not about the time, its about the attitude.