Accidents. Thursday, June 26, 2008 |
Came across an accident yesterday somewhere near my workplace. Another one today at Boon Lay.
It's pretty scary come to think of it. Anything can happen at anytime.
My own version of accidents have not been physical so far. More of the opposite rather. Targets keep popping out in my radar. Half of me is happy while the other half is totally otherwise. Its pretty superficial I guess. Nothing much to look into. I wonder what went through their minds at that first point of contact...Hmm...
Pretty tired and fucking exhausted lately. On MRT, had a couple of near falls due to sleeping while standing. Embarassment was overruled by sleepiness and its friends.
Kind of a pointless entry. Oh well. I'm just bored. SIP, faster end please.
Pearl white heart wrapped with diamond black.
Hit. Monday, June 23, 2008 |
Was contemplating in the bus a few hours ago. And a thought struck me. Hard.
Have I destroyed other people's lives by my actions? And if yes, am I still doing that?
Fucking guilt. Regret.
Fucked up.
Today was pretty much a good day although the morning had been sort of a drag. Went to play pool at Bukit Timah with WY and CM. Today's performance was so-so. Was quite bad at certain point of time. The best was when I put in about 4-5 balls in a row. I felt damn great la. Hahaz.
After which we hop down to Swensen's for dinner. I wasn't feeling hungry and was on tight budget anyway so I just had the Frosted Chocolate Malt. And yeah, didn't regret my order. :)
Okay. So you might be wondering who's the girl I'm refering to in my title. Let's just name her E. Haha. I dare say she's the first Malay(I believe she's one) girl I'm interested in. She looks sweet and innocent, just like me! LOL. Well, basically I've seen her before once. Which is during early May this year. At the same place. Not at the same time though. But it was a Sunday. Anyway, expressed my interest to CM and WY and ya...the teasing keeps on going. And I became more mad la. Was pretty hyper. Hahaz. Then got one time I was playing with my phone when I didn't realize that she was actually refilling our glasses with ice water. When she was halfway doing that I looked up and realized what was happening. I was damn surprised la. LOL.
Then, I drank like 4-5 glasses la, each time hopeing that she would refill again. MAJOR LOL. HAHA.
Haiz. That Swensen's ar...holds the few best moments of my life. N, XR,E. Oh my oh my.
Didn't expect it to happen la. Now 3 people are in the same league. When will the one jump onto this bandwagon? I can't only wait and wonder on...
ERIKA. Sweet like my frosted chocolate malt. XD
I stumbled upon your another blog by accident this morning. And my first impression was: you sound way different from your current blog. I can almost feel the 'heavy-ness'(if there's such a word) in your entries. The pressures you are facing and stuff.
Just a few words of encouragement for you, though I believe this will have very little chance of reaching your knowledge.
I must say that I'm very proud of what you have become today. Though things did not go your way, you pressed on for your dreams. Its pretty difficult to find people who are like you these days. What I want to say is, you have achieved a lot of things albeit that some of the things are tangible while some others are'nt. I look up to you because looking at myself, I'm nowhere close to what you are now. Heads up ey, you will make it one day. You will meet your expectations. For your own sake, please keep up with what you're doing and the way you approach life. The values you hold for yourself will bring you far. And one more thing, my hope remains the same as it is about 3 years ago, that you'll believe in love some day. Some day. Some day you'll find the person you've been looking for and that you end up well being with him.
That's all for you, old friend.
P.S: Was a little happy when you actually mentioned something that gave me the message that you actually had not forgotten about me. Unless I'm not one of the 2 that you mentioned.
Yeah! I want my pp as strong as pp! Nevermind. Was just being lame. Anyways, watched Kungfu Panda yesterday with the ADC peeps at Plaza Sing. What a bunch of noisy company la. And I literally mean the 2 meanings of company; friends and also approximately 1oo strength men. You want to know why? I bet you wouldn't want to know.
Anyway, the movie was smashing! Like how Po(no not Teletubbies, its the Panda. Although I suspect that they are somehow from the same family) whacked Tai Lung(the evil guy). Yup. It was super funny la. Damn cute. Neveertheless, underneath those laughter there are some life lesson takeaways that somehow restore the old values that have been long gone from me.
"Yesterday was history. Tomorrow's a mystery. Today is a gift. That is why it's called present."
I highly recommend this to kids la. I mean it is some sort good in the point of view of moral education.
A few seemingly good movies are coming soon. Dark Night. Zohan. Incredble Hulk. Shaolin Girl seems nice. Cool stuff.
Went to play pool after that. At Meridien. I love walking through town. Free washing eyes services. DAMN GOOD STUFF! GUA KATA SAMA LU LA BRADER, BARANG BAIK PUNYA!!! Hahaha. Freaking happy la. Especially at the pool place. And suddenly I played pool at my top performance la. Hahaha. But still not that good yet la haha.
That pretty much ended my weekends. Enjoyed myself albeit at cost of a hell lot of money. Burnt a hole in my pocket la. But it was worth it. :D I guess that is all that matters.
Ouh ya, Ben told me today that there's a cheaper place for pool. Somewhere opposite PS. Damn. Would be good to know that earlier. Hahaz.
P.S: I've been wanting to say this but I kept forgetting. So here goes. It has been more that just once instance that this happens. Since the past couple of weeks, I seem to see resemblances of you in other people. It's kinda awkward because I'll be like staring for a while just to confirm its not you. Haiz. Sometimes I feel like I've gone bonkers. But all is still within means. Manageable. :)
Believe. So tough to believe. Even if it means in yourself.
