At last. U hav inspired me to take a better look in life...both of us have been through the bad patches of it and although we may be seperated by the great distance...we still hold on and today u hav juz showed me a sign of a better and happier road ahead...ur will power deserves my salute and ur hardwork has definitely paid off. although i couldn't see u through the whole thing..i tried my best and did watch u at the later part..u all played well...nice work Real..hope u all will continue the great performance and hopefully the same goes to me..my days shall be happier bcuz of you..u all shall regain back the long lost kudos..4-2 was the scoreline...nice and professional goals by the professionals..the galacticos...luv u all..

::: Dunno when's the perfect day,what's the perfect time :::

A series of events happened today.Had my test today. A test of patience..suddenly had the inspiration to convert those things into a short story...and here goes...

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Somewhere in the heart of my heart...there was a being which represents Syamil's evil soul...he was preparing his 25 calibre hand gun...ready to release the loaded rounds..

Syamil's evil soul: You're so gonna die!!! U asshole!!!!

Then he made his way to Syamil's command centre, marching off with burning steps...juz as he was about to leave the heart...he was stopped by Syamil's angelic soul...

Syamil's angelic soul: Woah!! Stop right there..where do you think ur goin?

Syamil's evil soul: I cant take it anymore!! He has to pay for this..its a must...its a must!!!! Arghhhh!!!!!

Syamil's angelic soul: What's goin on..ur going to cause harm if our master follow ur way..let him be..be patient..

Syamil's evil soul: I cant! I cant!! I wanna blow his brains out. I want to bash him up,tear him down into smithereens. He's bloody irritating. And he's gonna pay for it!! I dun care!!!!

Syamil's angelic soul: Relax..u cant take him on..u'll juz get our master into more trouble..not this time...ur juz gonna burn down our masters hard built patience..do u know how much effort he puts in to have tt?

With tt, Syamil's evil soul walk back to his place trying to cool himself down...

About an hour later...

Syamil's evil soul: Thats it!!!! I cant wait any longer..u all shall get wat u all deserve..

Syamil's evil soul then load his revolver..and makes his way to Syamil's command centre...but he met Syamil's angelic soul once more..

Syamil's angelic soul: Don't do it. Its not worth it.Calm urself down. I know. I know. These ppl are firin u up.

Syamil's evil soul: Wait until when?!!! WHEN?!!!!!! These ppl are crap! They are the ones who bring our master down...they r e on who always cause trouble!!!!!

Syamil's angelic soul: Juz let them pass by...ur anger is only temporary...dun bring down the patience...we hav to prevent our master from goin the wrong way..

Syamil's evil soul stomped off with steam comin out of his ears n nostrils...

A few hours later...Syamil's evil soul showed up again, now badly wanting to break free and tell his master to let the steam off...the surrounding atmosphere was gettin hotter and hotter..

Syamil's angelic soul: I cant let u out..I have to defend our master...he has to remain calm and bury his fury...he has to bury them..he cant take revenge...

Syamil's evil soul: I dun give a damn!!!!!! He has to let others know how he feels..he cant let them take advantage of him...these ppl are too much..they dun deserve his benevolence..they bloody well dun deserve it!!!!!!!!!!

Syamil's angelic soul: But why? Wateva the reason is our master has to stay focus and calm and i wont let his anger overrule his actions...never

Syamil's evil soul: Don't u see????!!! The ppl are taking him for granted..this isnt the first time..our master needs to send them a gd message across..and the only way is too use the hard n harsh way!!! Why???!!!! Cuz these ppl are bastards n bitches!!!!! They give our master a hell lot of problems...and it alwaysz ruins his happy days...they make his life miserable!!!!!!!!! Yeah..sometimes they r his frenz...but they are never his true frenz..hopeless bunch of shits!!!!!! Huh? U think they deserve our master's great efforts and patience??!! Hell no they don't!!!!!!!!!! Wanna try the soft way??U think it'll work on these sickos??!! The answer is NO!!!! Chances have been given....too much in fact...this ppl shall deserve their death sentence...they will pay!!!!!

Syamil's angelic soul: The bottomline is they r still his frenz...and anyway didnt God made a promise that he is always there beside pple who r patient..who hav wat it takes to overcome the problems given by Him? Even by telling them off...they wont learn their lesson..its human nature...only they can change themselves...so lets encourage our master to adhere this episode and give our master our full support..encourage him to get on with life and heck care to this ppl... so give it a rest...

Finally, the animosity and anger in my heart was being controlled and neutralised...life was a bit smoother fromthen on...

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Phew..manage to spit it all out..feelin better..motivation n patience level has been heightened...hope its enough to last me through..

::: Wanna know how u feel for me too so I'll make up my mind :::

Had juz taken oral yesterdae. I was e 1st to go. Well, it didnt really matter to me tt much..It was rainin and my condition was pretty much the same. Cool and relaxed. Was able to experience the touch of tranquility..found it quite ironic at this time when exams are juz around the corner..anywae..was quite disturbed when i had to skip the last few minutes of geog. Was actually lookin at pics from the sports camp which I didnt attend..

Currently thinkin of a few things..drowned in my own thoughts..cant find answers to certain questions..wateva it is..i'm lookin forward towards 2moro's PE. Hockey again. Suddenly a torrent of enthusiasm rushed into me..feel motivated to lead the team to victory..to all my teammates out there..hope u all can deliver ur best..coz i cant do it alone..try to teach u all in a more amicable way..if u all find me more open 2moro..dun think im feigning 2 be a gd instructor..juz takin baby steps in order to be less shy...yar..maybe can make a new personal 'project'..a change from 'shy-male' to 'shuai-male'...hahaz...juz enunciated the impossible..

":::Success in subtlety:::"

Didn't quite feel like a Monday today. Dunno why. Started e dae off with some fun. Played hockey in e morning for a while. Ball went into e drain a few times. Laugh my heads off, its so comical seein my fren using his hockey stick to flick the ball out of the drain..anywaes, my battle scar was changing for the worse..got internal bleedin in my recuperating wound. nearly screamed wtf at e netball court upon seein it..seems like my efforts hav become futile...oh what e hell..

nothin much happen on the rest of today..busy with a lot of things..need to go now..prepare for 2molo..got muster parade..dunno wat is it for..there's oral too..hope tt my ulcer will go away..wateva it is..2molo shall be a good dae..

Finally, managed to get a blog. Its more for my own readin actually...not others...well u all can read if u all wan..I've spend the last 15 yrs ofmy existance not knowin of how to consilidate my thoughts,feelins and memories. Needed a robust reason for it. But now the time has finally arrive..In the last 15 yrs or so, meaningful memories have stepped into my life but most were lost in the passageof time..mostly pulverized...Looking back, I almost do not noe who I really am. Too much deceptions. Too much smoke screens.Life was carried out furtively...things done surreptitiously..sometimes I feel that I'm juz a low down coward. But I cant accept such fact because it juz annihilates my self-esteem and it abjects me. Muz stop such emotions. Its a must. A compulsion. All in the name to shape me into a better person. So now, as a form of restitution, I shall be more open. I'll try to. A sudden change in character might arouse unnecessary reveilles. Hate tt. My life may be full of intricacies but i pray hard tt it will turn out to be more austere...filled more with tranquility...

This blog was not only meant for the above reason. I have educational purposes accompanying the birth of this blog. I may be using words which are newly added to my diction. I believe it will help me improve on my eng. language. Wants to. Not hav to. Anywaez, some sentences may sound 'off' or awkward in the attempt of doing so. Therefore, to those who r readin out there, tell me if there r any loopholes or paradoxical sentences of which i need to amend...I' m lookin much forward to all ur comments on my upcoming entries..I may hav started of my blog soundin not so blithe..but I hope it will change for the better as time runs by..

":::the beginning of my '2nd life':::"