Energy-drained. Kind of tired because I had a lot of work today at the back. A lot of defence work that i need to do. However, we did badly. Got beaten with a scoreline of 6-0. Pretty devastating. Bad play. Really.

When a team wins a game, it's a stereotype that all eyes would be on the strikers. On very rare occasions, do people pay their attention to the back people who actually played a big role in contributing to the win. It's no one's fault. It's how nature works. Though its unfair. But one has to realized one day that it is not the responsibility of life to determine whether things are brought or done base on justice. These type of things just happen. But it is probably because of this that life is so interesting. And on many occasions, when a team loses, it is inevitable to have people holding on to views that the defence is lousy. The defence is to be blame. The defence sucks. I don't blame you if you hold such a perception. i mean, i do it too. But it's always only my first impression. After being placed as a defender for a quite long time, I feel the ''victimised'' by this too. Even though nobody said it explicitly, but inside them I know that they do think that way. And it is even harder to repel such one sided ideas when the team is thrashed. 5-0. 7-0. 12-0. To me, these scorelines are very embaressing. And i feel ashamed too. So yeah, Northland beat Commonwealth 6-0 today. Done what I could. But somehow I didn't achieved that sense of fulfillment.

I've already set my mind. That next week I would not be slacking or rather be discouraged by bad stuff. I'll have to turn the tide. i don't want to be in waters of misery for a long time. It's a waste of time though necessary. i need to catch up on my work. bleah.... :)

::: Man of the match :::