RAHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Really fed-up with some stuff but gotten over it....hahaz...anyway...lately, interesting things had happened...kinda farnie too... lolx...


On Wednesday night, I received this stray sms...suddenly popped out frm nowhere...obviously it was a wrongly sent sms but then it turnes to be...ehem...kinda weird..and funny...


her: hi not possible tomorrow..Sorry.


me:Err..may i know hu dis is?

her: Oh sorry sent to wrong person.

me: Oh..ok.. :)

her: Sorry leh

me: Lolx..its ok lar..haha

her: You seem funny ha!

me: Haha..no la..sumtimes mayb..im juz bored now..

her: Oh yeah?

me: Yar...anyway, since we're sms-ing...wads ur name?

her: Neejin. You?

me: Syamil...pronounced as shamil..sorry ah but is tt a guy or gal name?

her: A gal. What about yours a gal or guy

me: Guy...hey ur name sounds kinda cool...wads ur race? Im a malay liao..haha

her: Me from philippines. How old are you now?

me: I c..im 17..studying in poly..

me: So how old are u?

her: I'm old alreay leh. Dont faint ok, i'm 30.! See told you not to faint!

me: Lol! Haha..im luffing actually..dis is so farnie..hahaz..ur working here in s.pore?

her: Yes. Aiyah we dont sms each other lah i'm too old for you. Bye, nice sms-ing to you.

me: Lolx...relax..can bcome frenz mah..nothing wrong rite? But if ur uncomfortable den nevermind lor..haha..

her: I dont feel uncomfortable, juz feel sorry for you, ha ha ha

me: Aiya...nothing one la..im still young..got a lot of time..hehe..u r attached is it?

her: No lah. Don't even think of it. Ur still young. Care to meet up this sunday?

me: Haha..dun worry..i was juz asking..hmm..where?






Lolx...I just can resist it..had to post about this...It was really humurous...anyway...the rest of the smses...heck lar...too lazy to type all..anyway, I'm not meeting her because of some reason...so ya...I dunno if we are even going to contact each other again...hahaz...


Hmm...yesterday was a real farnie day at school...keep luffing and luffing...making fun of people...and then when we we're outside the lab...Asyraf was playing some sort of prank on people from other class...he bend down with his head behind the door..and when the person from inside open the door..he will pretend to be hit...it was funny to see how the people from the other class...especially the gals...they were like "OH my GOD!! SORRY SORRY!!!" Lolx...that should go into the Just for Laughs...its really nice...


then on tuesday while going home... I saw this guy on the MRT dancing to his music from his audio player....i actually dared myself to take a video of him and I actually did...a 17 seconds clip..if I have the means, I'll try to upload it....and he's kinda big size la...so it looks rather comical with his hands moving to the beat and stuff...


then yesterday night, TP sent my first warning letter...cuz I ponned A lesson....bloody stupid rite...just one lesson and one letter comes flying down...knn ccb...was damn pissed lor yesterday...kns...I couldn't believe that they were sooooooooo strict about it....I feel so suffocated...I know I'll get debarred from exams if my attendance is below 85% but what the hell....is 1 lesson even close to 5% !!?? wtf....this is so unreasonable...ridiculous...


And then, today...went for NCC training...while part of the company went to je stadium to rehearse the NDP, the remaining ones stayed back to carry out normal trainings...went for a short PT...whack the cadets a bit...actually it wasnt tt tough la...anyway...after that I observed them do their drills...the part As marching is horrendous....pathethic sia...I want to vomit blood you know...sian...then after last parade ms irene lim tok to me for a few minutes...abt training and stuff...so....


Things to polish up for part A:

1. Drills....

2. Fitness....


Wah...how sia...I'm already caught up with my own work and my fitness also not that good already...my last 2.4km timing was like a total fail...almost 15 minutes....that was like last tuesday....sian ah..kinda expected...its like ages since I have a proper serious training routine...so I have to grab my running shoes and start...it is also training for the climb up Mt Ophir....if everythign goes well of course...thinking of making a non-compulsory PT for NCC guys on saturday...I'll ask Mr faizal abt it if I have the chance to see him again soon...hope it works...


Oh ya....marcus just called me not long ago...telling me he saw 15 at the concert at TP...tt is happening like rite now...so ya...and he say she already has a bf...soooo...nowadays I think I have to watch my back...who knows later I kena whack sia...I dun wanna die so young....hahaz...


National camp is coming soon...dunno if i can go or not...sian ah...i hate it when people don't mean wah they say...then after that like to act innocent...wah...sian...if cannot then say cannot la...make my life so difficult sia...kns....


And then, I got a letter recently by MINDEF...asking me to register for NS...but then I defer...so i'm given until March 09 to complete myh studies...by then I think the jc guys would have become sergeants or sirs... :) and i would be under them :( .....lolx.....


thats it for now... doodels...

FINALLY!!! Yes...finally I actually did it, even though it failed -__-''. I asked 15 for her name this morning at the bus stop. And then she said something like Elizabeth..if I'm not wrong...I couldn't hear her clearly because of the roaring of buses pulling over and the crowd that was there. Very noisy...and then I think it was her friend who told her not to talk to me further. In short I was suaned lor...fuck sia...lolx..



oh ya....I think I broke a personal record... I said the word fuck the most times today...FUCK!!!


:(


Anyway, I was happy that I finally asked a girl for her name...as in like a stranger...wahahaha....did it just because I can't help the feeling of so called 'regret'. Its like...I don't know...but to me, the thing that mattered most was I tried and the real objective was to make the move and not to get her. Lols...the bottomline is...I DID IT!!! Hahaha...hey, for my kind of guy, its not that easy hor...my blog is named 'shymale' for a reson lor....


:)


But then, I was quite irritated....because after that she like heck care me...like I said,I think its because of the influences from her friends...anyway, i find it kinda rude and was quite pissed off with that...bloody arrogant bitches sia...like I want you like that...fuck off lar..... hahahaz...

:)


Finally, I'm at eased...what a 'stunt' lols.....

:D

My G-shock watch beeped with an orange light. 23:00. My legs were exhausted and my eyelids were going to close anytime soon. And there I was at the underground Marina Bay MRT Station....alone. I didn't really take note of the surroundings. All that I was thinking of was having myself soaked in cold shower at home. Somewhat after like eternity, the I could hear the roaring train rolling into the station.






And as I stepped into one of the cabin, I get the shocked of my life.



There was no one....


Except for a lying body on the seats...































































Can you believe this???




A kuku nut wearing a


sleeveless converse shirt,


3/4 pants,


and Sauchony sports shoes


tried to scare me???!!! WTF!!!!







Okay la, that was all just fiction. The truth is I'm bored.

A friend asked me this question today.





" Do you believe that the world is going to end? "



Without hesitation, I replied, " Yes, of course."


It has always been one of my beliefs that whatever there is on this earth will come to and end one day. I don't have a solid evidence as to prove why is it that way but I think it is just the way nature works. Anyway, it is just what I think. There are others out there that believes that its otherwise.


But one thing I'm pretty sure about the world is that, its getting rather old. And as the days go by, destruction is escalating with an exponential curve. There seems to be no end to it. A quarrel after a quarrel. A fight after a fight. A war after a war. Look at Iraq now. Wars are still going on there. And there's still the conflict between Israel and Palestine. Everyday, a handful of innocent lives are ripped off from bodies. I really pity those people who actually died for nothing. Just because of some screwed-head people or ''leaders'', they are the ones who had to take the pain. They are the one who have to suffer.


Today, the war-going-on-world was brought down to scale according to the way I see it. Though the reasons for conflict were different, it was an example of a negative situation which saddens me as much as what is happening to the world now. Even within a group of leaders, a team, a corp, there are critical differecnes. So critical that some even took an extra mile to slash another comrade's throat. What has the four years been? A waste of time? Where are your values that you have promised to uphold that evening on the 21st of April 2006? Where is your pride? Where? Don't look and point at me, saying I'm pessimistic. But sometimes, it is just to predictable. No matter where you are, which most elite group you are in, there is always that one or a couple of black sheeps. After years of working with other people, I can't help but to think of it that way. And I have a feeling that there's still more to come.




Oaths nowadays are getting meaningless.


Ranks nowadays are fading.


Promises nowadays are getting empty.


Uniforms nowadays are losing their value.


And worse of all, people nowadays are losing their principles





I am not God. I don't possess that much power to change other people's feelings. I am not one of those top scholors who can come up with formulas to eradicate all these nonsense. I am just a normal kid who has common sense, a functional pair of eyes (its getting worse though), a pair of workable ears and a brain which operates humbly without extra special features. And with these few god-given things, I am able to conclude that it is all due to the lack of willing acceptance, lack of respect and lack of personal pride.


It is really difficult to straighten things up now. As long as the ego is there, neither side will cease the shooting, and I mean literally and metaphorically.



As a normal human being, I shall just do whatever I can.



Walk your talk, Syamil... walk your talk...

Just felt like putting in a short entry here....


Nothing much happened these days...falling behind on my studies due to some poor time management and the project work. I just cant wait to get it over and done with. Nevertheless with quality. Other than playing group leader, I'm also crowned the King of Bullshitting, yeah...because I could nullshit a lot in my report writing. well, picked it up during Sec 2's IPW...not like it didn't work...in fact, the written report part was given a distinction grade if I didn't remeber wrongly. Still remebered that time when my group consisting of Thomas, Jason and Preetpal, had to chiong our whole report within 2 weeks...and there was still other areas of the project left unfinished...but our multi-racial group made it well....then even got chosen to give a short presentation to the whole school during assembly. So cool...then we were standing infront of the stage in one row...and I was given the mike to say something about my experience doing the project...than i got nothing to say so i passed to jason who was next to me...then he passed to thomas who was on his other side and thomas passed to preetpal and of course he got no one to pass on to next...lol...and in the end i think i said something like...


'' Our group managed to finish it even though we talk mostly on other things during the project meetings."


man...that was like a stupidly done public confession sia...lolx...those days, it was like so care- free...


Anyway, ya...nothing much to talk about....so 15 today after such a long time...and last monday was kinda farnie...we didn't see any of our ''targets'' and were so called terrribly dissappointed...and wth...the next day....which is on tuesday, girls flowed out from all over the place sia....we were like so surprised...from engineering school some more...wtf??


So the moral of the stroy is....... do not ever skip school on a tuesday....lolx... :)


Dreading for this week to end....cant wait for next tuesday....and for this project work to finish....by then, can watch world cup finals...hope portugal wins it....


....where no one knows my name....

Was very tempted to blog...so I sort off give in...I'm kinda tierd and sleepy now after a pretty fast and tiring week. But it has been LOADS of fun...yeah...but I'll appreciate a bit more free time during my future weekends..how good it'll be if I can choose to be tired and sleepy...oh wells...crap, I'm getting sleepy..talking nonsense...zZzzZzzzZzZZZZzzzzzzzzzzZZZZ


Anyway, tomorrow is youth day but polytechnic students are not entitled to the holiday because we're tertiary institutions...it is just too bad...anyway, like a friend of my mentioned just now, its not like we can't don't come tomorrow...its a choice....hahaz...


yeah...I'll start on my crazy weekend...


On Friday, went down to CSS for NCC training and lo and behold, I saw Mdm Ros since like nong nong ago...didn't speak much la...she was kinda dealing with a student at that time...so yups...I was in No.3 and man...it feels kinda weird wearing it in school...like you are some big fark like that...anyway, after that, the CLTs discussed with Ms Lim regarding the CSM candidates...haiz...big headache...big problem...but I think it is more or less settled even though its pretty harsh but its for the betterment of the cadets. After training, me, hakim and shai with a few part b cadets went to eat at je's pizza hut. it was fun especially wif shai around...laugh and laugh and laugh....the time passed so fast and by the time we finished it was like 9...I feel kinda pai seh sia waering the smart no 3 in public...especially when im the only one...I'll get use to it...haha...ya...and then went home wif asyraf and tok and tok abt ncc matters....there's much to be done and rectified....and ya, saw irfaan after a damn long time...was happy to c him...lolx..


And then on sat had to go down to kallang stadium to be part of the ushers for the syf oc. got to c lot of things...my second time going for the event...the other time was during sec 3 as a spectator...much went on there but I decline to go into detail..im jus too tired now...it lasted until 8 plus....me cm and wl took a bus back wif some yuhua students.....man tt gal is farking loud and noisy lor....really cant tahan her....we clts keana disturbed like nobody's business...then we went home frm yuhua sec only to meet again later to watch world cup matches at cm's 'sis' house which is fortunately near mine...so just walk there for me... :)


was happy tt prtugal made it but sad for brazil...wanted them to win world cup but this tournament...they are kinda lifeless sia...sobs...


ya...then didn't really sleep...cuz watch both matches...then..went home when it was like clsoe to 6 in the morning...so went home..pray, then sleep until 9 plus...cuz had to go out for project discussion at national library...was so tempted to pang seh them...but I group leader liao....and as far as I can remember, i havent pang seh anyone before...by not telling them la tt is...hahaz


so ya..surprisingly wasnt tt tired or sleepy yet...then at around 3 walked around bugis....got REAL talk going on there...smt abt education...then jia hao called to play soccer...went back home and changed before coming down to play....


i think i did pretty well today...i like my style of play now...its weird cuz I haven been playing a for ages...scored 2...saved some...concede some...it was really enjoyable la...ya...but the result is...tiredness now...wanna sleep sooon....zZZzzzzzZzZZZZzzzzzZZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzZZZZ


tired...hope to see pretty gals tomorrow to liven up my day....lolx..just kidding...needa find time for revision...as you can see ive dun nothing during this weekend to catch up on studies...


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i wanna a place to just lie down and rest peacefully....life...