Had a movie yesterday night. Watched Mr Beans Holiday with my whole family. The keyword here is WHOLE if you failed to see. Because this is the first time in my, or rather in our entire lives that we had watched a movie together before. Kinda cool la. What's more is that we caught the 2320 show and before that we just had dinner and slacked around the neighborhood. My next aim I guess is to have the whole family to be on board an aeroplane flying off to some holiday destination or whatsoever.



The movie was okay. I was a bit disappointed because the amount of humour was lacking. Though I must agree that some parts are really damn funny and left me in stitches. But I enjoyed the whole thing. At least I don't think its a waste of money to watch it.



After that went home. More accurately, walked home. From Jurong Point all the way back. Personally I don't think its that far. Say, about 20 to 30 minutes walk. It was kinda relaxing too with the cold night wind and peacefulness. And by the time we reached home its already 1 am plus in the morning. :D



Cool stuff I must say. Family coolness. :)

Alrite, prepare gallons of coffee or dozens of warhead sweets to jack up your eyes. I suppose the entry would be long but no longer than the 5 days that took it. A whole set of new experiences and unexpected events. I really did not expect them to happen.



Maybe I should start off with Sunday night, when me and the CLTs from West District booked in. Was supposed to go to HQ to assist in the briefing for the Mt Ophir climb. Did the usual stuff and after that get them tucked in so that they can leave on time the next morning. Then we combed the blocks for some place to sleep and finally settled on a bunk. It was the eve before the ADC began and we were feeling so nervous that we started to become siao, crazy, gila or what have you. We were seriously crapping non-stop and it got worse when WL said something about if you feel ticklish on your thigh when someone touches it, it means you always masturbate. Frankly , I haven heard of anything close to that until that night. Eventually, we got sleepy and then slept. It wasn't a peaceful sleep because we didn't had bedsheets and pillow cases. It was pretty uncomfortable. I was just half sleeping. I woke up feeling kinda drowsy.


ADC Day 1
The in-processing took a while because of the inconsistency of the participants. Nevertheless, the CLT cum Band did not really had much of a problem as we were a minority. The day was not very tiring as there were only talks and lectures. Nothing interesting except that one of the CLTs chose to leave the course as he claimed that he was exhausted with work or something along that line. But from observation and rumours, the reason was because he was not able to live with the fact that he is under the command of people who are ranked the same or for others lower than him. I'll just let the matter rest to that. I can't be bothered to find out more. My comments if the rumours are true: How unprofessional. Oh ya, my section commander was a char bo, S/CLT Grace. She's okay. S/CLT Melvin was okay too. But the other one wasn't. I found that out later during the course.




ADC Day 2
It was the day to go outside and have some fun learning drills. As for lectures, it was about managing parades and ceremonies if I hadn't remembered wrongly. Today was when we learned or re correct some foot drills , rifle drills and stationary drills. Before I go on any further, I must say that I love the drills that executed. Simply because we did it together. Okay lar, not 100% of the time but at least most of the time. I loved the solid bang that we CLTs produced and it sound as one. Unison. I find it wonderful because we haven't do drills together before. From experience, it took me and my platoonmates from CSS NCC months to just get a solid wonderful bang of the leg. I guess we CLTs owed it to the years of training we had when we were cadets. Nothing much also for today. Other than the interview with the individual section commanders. Well, I must say I didn't do really well. In fact I didn't perform during the whole course. When you start at the wrong footing, it's hard to change to the right one. Its not as simple as tukar langkah. Anyway, thanks to S/CLT Grace for the comments.



ADC Day 3
New stuff learned today: Slow march, sword drills and colours drills. It was fun on the whole and we pretty muched enjoyed it though today's weather was worse than yesterday. I became more demoralized when I find that I needed a longer time to do all those drills. Some were really new to me. And for the panji-panji drills, it was my worse ever executed drills. Haiz...I need more practices. And strength. And I better be more open and receptive to advices and pointers too. The planning for the passing out ceremony got worse. The CLTs were given the task to plan out and handle the passing out ceremony. From the start I could already see that the whole thing was not steady. Different people had different ideas and I don't think most of us are patient or considerate enough to listen to others. And there was the lack of respect for appointment holders with people doing the job of others. It was really hay wire. But it was good enough that we didn't broke into a fight or quarrel. THAT trainer didn't do us any good either. Instead of boosting our morale, he demoralized us and the OIC even more. Stupid SOB. I'll touch more about that later. Oh ya, almost forgot. Me and a few others volunteered to clear and oil the rifles. I must say that it was the first time I cleared so many rifles. I must say I enjoyed it. Though it proved to be a disadvantage for me as the whole population of the course were to do pull ups. And then came the theory test. It was okay la...just that the things that I sort off studied slipped out of my mine. Lastly, learned of one really cute and funny cheer. The banana song.




ADC Day 4
It was a big day for us the CLT trainees. And the worse thing came. The trainers delayed the whole thing. Morning was okay but when the photo taking started, it was havoc. The trainers stubbornly wanted everyone to be inside the picture. At first I thought it was taken company by company. But then no. It was stupid la I must say. 200 people squeezed into a picture. What the hell. And because of that, it delayed the whole schedule. The CLTs had to hurry their western food lunch so as to prepare for the ceremony. Other people shit, other people clear. I was the ceremony commander. And on the real thing I cocked up something. Sian...was totally demoralized. Damn. After the whole thing. Things didn't get any better. And again THAT trainer was being a sarcastic asshole. Hope he burns in hell. In the end, the 4 trainers(releveant) showed their true colours. And I concluded 2 of them were being farkers. The other 2 was okay.

First issue. THAT trainer. In the beginning, I thought he was okay due to some things regarding punishment which I won't elaborate because that was fair enough. But then, he showed the real him. Like what SM NCC stated, patience is one of the qualities of a drill instructor. I guess he suck at that. He was a sarcastic freak and doesn't really respect others. He failed to gain respect from his men. At one instance when I tried to discuss with him, he actually humiliated me and shooed me away. What a total farker. I might salute him but he will NEVER EVER get my respect. Not even over my dead body.


2nd issue. ANOTHER trainer. A fresh CLT from 52nd intake. He got 4 strikes during course AAR without the trainers around. Another goner.


3rd issue. My confidence level during the course was damn low. I think the lowest of all time. I'm lost all the time. Always monkey see monkey do. Due to that, I didn't perform at all. I've no idea what happened.


4th issue. My temper nearly got out of hand. But everytime I nearly blasted, my temper was short circuited. Lucky. If not I confirm kena suspension from HQ. Plus the course really drained out my energy because of lack of sleep.



5th issue. I really don't feel like wearing my supernumerary badge. It feels really heavy. Especially after all that the course did to me. And I don't feel at home when with the the other supernumeraries. Except for some la... Sigh...



After all those shit came CHALLENGE QUEST 2007. I was tired in the morning. And then at0645 had to depart for my duty as bus ic. Okay la..not so bad...Only a few trips. Then the best thing. Was 'forced' to go MOC. After that even more exhausted. But guess what made up for all that? WEST IS THE NEW CHAMPIONS!!! It was the first. East district had been holding on to the title for 3 years running. I guess they were really strong. Respect them a lot for that. Damn pro.


Due to the win...the rest I don't think really matters. Haha...looking forward to Camp Feast 2. And thanks SM for saying "west rock on!" LOL... :)


Oh yes. one more thing..finally got to meet the legendary CLT Sukhbir. A really entertaining guy. LOL.


I can salute anyone, but I don't respect everyone.

Went down to SSTC in the morning. Too early in the morning for my own good. The effects of lack of sleep is still hanging onto me now so I guess this entry is going to be a short one.


Reached there feeling a little awkward at the beginning. And then things start to get going and everything seems fine. Nothing much for the us, the Land Party, to do. Just help to organize the flow of movement and help in checking the logistics stuff.


And then the Sea DC taught a few cadets on basic kayaking since they don't have 1 star kayaking qualification(like me...lol). But kayaking is fun la...cuz I tried before. And then lacking time came...soon after lunch came. When the afternoon shift cadets came, things started to get a bit more chaotic.



And guess who else came? Babes from NTU! Lol...ok la...they just wear those singlets? and fbt shorts...so sexy la..haha...But then the whole place was like crowded and me and cm were washing kayaks...the cadets oso very cb...suddenly can dissappear...I guess what goes around comes around...bad karma...


Then, decided to went home after the afternoon shift guys launched. Pretty tired and sleepy la...plus the weather was hot...sian...


Ok la...off I go...can't take it anymore...tomorrow is the last morning I can wake up late...before all the camps start to roll in that is...

Peti Hitam




Di dalamnya
Kenangan bersalut kata-kata
Kenangan bersalut sentuhan bermakna
Genggamannya hanya di persada khayalan


Aromanya sudah tiada
Kuhirup dan disapa pula
Belaian kasih yang sekian lama
Yang tidak kuterima dengan sejujurnya


Sehelai kain ungu
Yang telah menangkap sentuhannya dulu
Yang telah berkepit di pergelangan tanganku
Tanda jalinan dua hati yang menjadi satu


Akhiratnya tidak ingin kuingati
Benci dihati tiada lagi


Selepas dirinya tiada lagi
Adakah hatiku dikunci
Menunggu kehadirannya kembali?


Aku tidak tahu.
Dan tidak ingin tahu.


Mungkinkah peti hitam bersinar kembali?

Just heard over the radio about the earthquake aftershocks that hit Singapore yesterday morning. I didn't heard about it until this morning. And since I'm on holiday, I wasn't at the east side. In fact, I was in a swimming pool with a friend at BB.



The news of it actually stunned me for a while. Because yesterday night I slept in early and I actually dreamed of being in the middle of an earthquake. And I was actually running away from a tsunami. But in the end I was still okay and so are my other family members who appeared in the dream. Pretty weird...I'll just hope that I or anyone that I know for that matter, won't get stuck in one. It's scary.


What's the world coming to?





Suddenly the holidays seem to be short. I guess its because NCC is taking up a lot of time for now. Maybe in April, the activities will subside.


SP students should have gotten their results. Mine would be in a few weeks time. As long as my results stay or become even better, I'm happy. Aiming for more As this time.


Coming soon big stuff:

1. ADC. Man, its gonna be so awkward. Hopefully the instructors are friendly enough and won't put us in a difficult position. Haiz...ADC...supernumerary. If given a choice, I wouldn't want to put it on. The only reason I'm going for the course is to gain the knowledge on advance drills. That's my basic requirement.

2. Class gathering. Right....I don't think its going to be successful? Pardon me for my pessimism. But for those who can go, just go la...have fun, chill around and maybe go and play hide and seek or police and thief with some ghosts or wad...the chalet is going to be at changi anyway. Finding the 'people' won't be difficult I guess.


Highlight of the gathering: A visit to The Red House and OCH.



Ok...that was crap...


I better go and take a bath now before my com gives up on me. Going for range later. Let's shoot'em up boys....and girls...

Can't Let Go
By Landon Pig





Well you're the closest thing I have

To bring up in a conversation

About a love that didn't last

But I could never call you mine

Cause I could never call myself yours

And if we were really meant to be

Well then we just defied destiny

Its not that our love died

Just never really bloomed




Well I can't let go

No, I can't let go of you

You're holding me back without even trying to.

I can't let go

I can't move on from the past

Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.




And then we saw our paths diverge

And I guess I felt okay about it.

Until you got with another man,

And then I couldn't understand

Why it bothered me so.

How we didn't die we just

Never had a chance to grow.




I can't let go

No, I can't let go of you

You're holding me back without even trying to.

I can't let go

I can't move on from the past.

Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.




And it might not make much sense

To you or any of my friends

Though somehow still you affect the

Things I do.

And you can't lose what you never had

I don't understand why I feel sad

Every time I see you out with someone new.




I can't let go

No, I can't let go

No, I can't let go of you.




I can't let go

No, I can't let go of you

You're holding me back without even trying to.

I can't let go

I can't move on from the past

Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.




I can't let go

No, I can't let go of you

You're holding me back without even trying to.

I can't let go

I can't move on from the past.

An excellent Cadet Lieutenant (CLT).



1. SOMEONE WHO PRODUCE IMPACTS.

Need not be said because it can be seen. When dumped into a gone case unit, he/she is able to bring it to recognition. The unit need not become the best among all. But is superb enough if the unit can climb the ladder of placings and reach greater heights. Its not so much about the destination, but more to the distance covered that matters most. The ability to bring people from the dark side to the light side.




2. SOMEONE WHO PLACES THE ABOVE, ABOVE ALL.

In straight-talk terms, the results,awards,fame and other bullshit are secondary. What is the ultimate aim of him/her is to change people's lives and give them life-long learning experiences. 10 or 20 years down the road, people around him will still remember what he has taught them. The values he/she instilled, not enforced. Someone who can do that is worth saluting and to be respected even more. I'd rather pick the leader who can teach a boy not to steal once in his entire lifetime than a leader who is surrounded by awards and stuff. Awards if placed beside valuable life-changing experiences are nothing in my eyes.




3. SOMEONE WHO STANDS.

For others as well as himself/herself. A leader who doesn't bow to challenges. And this kind of leaders you will see only in the darkest moments of life. And this kind of people are the ones you run to when you need help. For they will really help you. When you see them, you know you wouldn't want to mess around. Their aura speaks for them. They stand for the right, the rights of others and his/her own rights. And when they're in the wrong, they do what they're suppose to do.




4. SOMEONE INFLUENTIAL.

He/she will spread enthusiasm around. Somebody who encourages towards the good which is usually, in life, the tougher road. There are leaders who are influential. But they steer others to the bad things and for their own benefits. They are among the few kinds of humans I'm utterly disgusted with. Doing the wrong thing yourself is bad enough. Encouraging people to do it is worse.





What you have just read is just part of a fairy tale. It is nothing but a fantasy and only a fantasy.



Don't tell me he/she is a CLT from a Gold or Best unit. Tell me what's their contribution to it.
Don't tell me about those around you. Because it is YOU that I'm looking at.