Felt kidna happy today. The usual ups and downs. Feeling kinda tired now so I'll just sum up in brief for today.


UPs



1. Saw 14!!!
2. Saw shorti!!! Though not that clearly...
3. Computer programming was enjoyable.


DOWNs


1. Problems with e-innovative project.
2. Stupid lecturers Not all la of course.
3. Encounter some MRT accident at Clementi interchange
4. Stupid ulcers.



Was on my way home just now when at Clemeti, the doors were not opened. Everyone waited for like about 10 minutes before there was an announcement saying that everyone was to alight as the train would be out of service. Something was wrong, and I thought at first that the train might have malfuntion or something. But when you see SCDF people there and the police, you can more or less guess what had happened. I'm not really sure if it was suicide but hell, it kinda pissed me off a bit. If its commit suicide, I'll be more pissed. Just because of one person, you have to trouble so many people?


Anyway, I believe that the solution to a problem is always there. Commiting suicide is just a coward's way out. Oh wells, sometimes the pressure is just too much. That's when you have to think that there's always a better tomorrow.

Damn. The season of green packets. And the season for sucking money too. Damn I'm broke.































































Will be released on 1st November for PC. Very tempted to get it. Read comments saying its not that special but to me the cars in there is the reason why I'm drooling over it. Skyline R34, Evo IX, Nissan 350Z, BMW M3, RX8, Lambos and some other very recent cars. Even the Impreza is of the latest edition.


Well, hopefully its good. And hopefully I can get it.

Can't blog much for now because I have about half hour window period only. I woked up this morning feeling rather tired. I don't really understand why because the night before I did sleep earlier than usual.


Anyway, went to school yesterday and suddenly it seems that everyone starts in the morning. People just keep pouring in. For the first lesson I had lab. Was surprised to see new people in the class. More girls in the class but none that really got me horny. Which is good la.


So ya. Nothing much about school. Or maybe I just can't remember. Whatever.


So about today. Went for the usual hari raya prayers. My brain nearly kena sort this morning but heck about it. Then went to grandma's house. My cousin from Malaysia was already there. Ok man, this is starting to get so dry.


Towards this evening we were at this house la...ermm if I'm not wrong its my grandpa's brother's house. Ok anyway, went in and fuyo....got pretty girls sia. Ok, sian. I don't even know them. I oso never see properly la...anyway that's not my main point.


Was going to go home when someone actually smiled at me. Wee...rare you know people smile at me. I almost missed that smile cuz she a bit short..hehehe...anyway, impossible la if you know wad i mean...she's like 20+? lolx..


But that smile up my day la...at least today, something good happen. :)))


ok..got 2 more points to add before i really have to go off...


1. Recently, I found out that its not so rare to have someine living at one end of singapore and to study at the other end.


2. I feel awkward receiving green packets today. haha...mayb i feel tt i'm too old but well, i need the $$$.


Byes..smile!!!

So tomorrow school shall resume and yeah, things are going to start rolling again. I've no idea what's in store for me this sem. Hopefully, I can still cope with my work because I've more modules to cover this time.


And if you're reading this please pray for me that I won't have much difficulty in Japanese. Yeah, you saw that right. Japanese.


And the lecture will be held in Business School. How lucky can I get?



Anyway, was reading on the world wide web regarding some services on Islamic banking. I thought the HSBC Amanah has one branch in Singapore but apparently, they don't. Maybe I'm just mistaken or maybe it's not established yet. Whatever it is, I was reading and more than half the time I have to re-read. That's because I couldn't understand nuts what they are writing! But I do hae a rough idea of what they are trying to say so in the end, I got kinda got it la...so-so.


The most distinctive element of Islamic banking is the prohibition of interest, whether ''nominal'' or ''excessive,'' simple or compound, fixed or floating. Other elements include the emphasis on equitable contracts, the linking of finance to productivity, the desirability of profit sharing, and the prohibition of gambling and certain types of uncertainty. These parameters define the nature and scope of Islamic banking, as interpreted by the Shariah scholars that work with Islamic financial institutions.


That's what I read at the HSBC Amanah webbie. It's the main concept of Islamic banking and the highlighted parts are what that brought me to attention. I feel that the specialty in Islamic banking lies in that. Just that.


So much for monetary stuff. I don't really have much to blog. Tomorrow will be last day for fasting. I don't know why but I don't feel the Hari Raya atmosphere coming. Well, that's just too bad. Maybe I'll blog again tomorrow night.


In case I don't, I'll just wish all Muslims a Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin and a belated Happy Deepavali to all Hindus celebrating.

Was already kind of happening in the morning. Wanted to darken my boots only to find out to my horror that the kiwi had turned hard. I know its suppose to be hard but this is the type of hardness which means its damaged! Anyway, improvised a bit and finally got the job done though it didn't really satisfy me.


This time, I made sure I reached HQ on time and ya, I did. I went to West office and slacked around a bit before drawing arms (as in M-16s) from the armoury. Luckily Suhardi came and helped out and that the new warrant officer was on the ball. Feeling tired now and I still haven't iron my uniform for tomorrow's training so I'll just type out briefly.


Main highlight today. Ammo arrived late. There was some cock up. Apparently the driver was not informed for the delivery and hence the latecoming.


Anyway, WO Teo impart some knowledge regarding the M-16. Like what's the difference between the M-16 and AR-15 (M-16 comes with forward assist). And also, he told us that the round that goes off from the weapon doesn't go straight. It will first dip and then rise and then dip again before reaching the target. He was saying something like at 25 meters range, the round will be off by -2.2 cm and at 100m, 0cm and at 250m, its +6.4cm if I'm not mistaken.


So managed to wrap things up at around 5.15pm. And Lt Rizal told me that by after 5.30pm, we should cease all live firing because just infront of the range at an angle of 45deg to the right is residential area. And like what most Singaporeans are famous for- complaining.


Pretty hectic today. But in the end, everything's fine. It will always be.


I get to so called close up to more SAF personnel today. And how wrong I was to think that some of them are arrogant, especially some of the SAF 2nd Lefts. Pretty great bunch of people la the NS people. But I did felt weird being the only CLT there because Suhardi alraedy left by then.


Other than NCC stuff, I got my timetable today and I must say it sort off sucks. But I'm still thankful that the earliest time I had to report to school is 9am. Meaning I won't have to wake up that early. I was hoping for a short Tuesday so that I could go for CSS NCC trainings in the afternoons. But no. It's still the same.


Talking about CSS NCC, I must say that I'll be very, absolutely dissapointed if after tomorrow, there will be no more NCC trainings till next year. This is what I mean when I say that CSS NCC lacks the support from the school. Be it moral or financial. It is like as if they want to destroy the NCC unit. If so, tell me. So I won't have to come back again. What a waste of time. Really pissed by this.


Got to go now. My green uniform's waiting.

Tuesday: 17/10/06


Ran out of luck today. Was making my way to Amoy Quee when I realized that I would be seriously late. So I called sgt Iskandar and he told me to meet at outside PLC. I was already at BB then so instead of taking the MRT back to Boon Lay, I decided to take 157. I reached Boon Lay on time but I missed the bus 193 so I had to wait for a while. And the next suay thing that happened was I missed the bus stop. So in the end, I did managed to end up at PLC and waited for sgt Iskandar to come with the rover. While waiting, I saw this damn beautiful evo. I nearly went berserk. Lol... anyway, the rover came a few minutes later and off I went to SAFTI 300M RANGE. Pretty runned down place.



The usual things took place. And there were Crescent girls around which made someone really happy and hyper (not me hor). Nothing interesting today I supposed. At least today's shoot has less havoc. I went for a round of shoot and it wasn't really good. I don't know why. Perhaps I was too excited about shooting again.


Going to have live range this Thursday. I think DC won't be around, hopefully. I guess this time round I'll really be the only CLT available. Thanks to Clement for coming down for the 2 IMTs, sacrificing some of his school time. And no la, your cock up today was nothing compared to the past cock ups we had experienced. So to speak your cock up was not really a cock up la..haha.. :)


Oh yeah, one more thing. I've been wanting to say this but I kept forgetting about it.



I used to think, when I was a cadet, that NCC girls are categorized under the CMI (cannot-mak-it). But after being a CLT, I realized that it is not as bad as I had made it out to be. There are at least some la..haha..lolz...


Ok..that's all I guess. Roger out.

FINALLY!!!




Not finally start school arh..haiz..sian.


But finally got some outside activity to do.
IMT. Yeah, had one yesterday and one today.



Monday: 16/10/06


Woke up earlier than usual. I was late. It felt abnormal. As far as I can remember, I've never been late for NCC activities. Ok, I take back my words. Hahaz..anyway, I did whatever I could to reach Commonwealth at the stipulated time. When I reached school, I was relieved to see that Chin Tau and Wei Hao were already there to organize Part A. We tried to get a classroom but to no vail as there was oral exams going on. Pretty bad. I must say the Part A is very tough to handle. Maybe they need to have a tougher way (its not like their training is even tough) of handling. Anyway, we were spotted by a few teachers and they seemed so intimidated by our presence. I was wondering, "What the hell? We are not even doing anything yet." And no, we were not going to do anything loud. Hahahaha...But its good to know that CSS's teachers are very concern over their students. They're great. So in the end, we ended up in the Annex Room. The Part A really need to have their heads booted right into the grooves of the parade square. Even in a very comfortable position, they still like to talk loudly and behave like some hay-wired donkeys. Maybe sitting on chairs were a problem to them(since they're donkeys). Next time, I shall have them to be on all fours (just the way a donkey would like it) while I/ my specialists conduct any lesson. Let the blood rush to their brains so that thier brains have more oxygen to play around with.



After a very unsatisfyingly done briefing, they were assembled. After everything was settled, they were being loaded up onto the bus and finally, we could set for IMT. There was a little confusion as to where the IMT was to be held. But as a CLT who knows well of the cock ups that occurs in the organization, I managed to direct the bus to the designated place. It was good that I had attended National Camp. Because of it, I am familiar with the surroundings. =)



Upon entering the gate, I was "warmly welcomed" by 2 cadet Specs from my ''beloved'' school. How nice. Anyway, I responded to them as how any other CLT would (I suppose).



What got me flared up was what happened inside the chamer. The CSS cadets were such a pain in the ass. I can't recall clearly what mistakes they made but I was certain that they did something wrong which I had touched on earlier in the morning. I shan't elaborate on this. What I know is that they were'nt paying attention during the lesson and the results showed it. That's all there is to it.



The next thing that I saw which ''amazes'' me was this: Cadets cocking the M-16 after firing each round. What the ____? I think they are too much into history already. For goodness sake the M-16 rifle is not a WW2 kind of rifle! It dose'nt need to be loaded round by round! Even when I was a cadet last time, I don't remember anyone doing such stuff. Bless them all.



And yeah. What does the word safe tell you? Nevermind let me give you a definition of it.


safe (adj.) : Secure from harm, danger, or evil


If your weapon is at safe mode, do you think your rifle can shoot? Which part of S-A-F-E do you not understand? This must be the joke of the day. Haiz..cadets nowadays.



On the whole, I think that's about it. Then me, Clement, sgt Iskandar and lt Rizal board our bus going back to NCC HQ. Lo and Behold! The bus can't start! So we got down and push the bus all the way back. No la, just kidding. Push the bus to jump start la! Wakaka... CLT...any job also can.



Went into West Office. Relak jack for a while. And then we were informed about the discipline of CLTs. Rules are to be enforced and so on. No more camera phones and stuff. So now, whenever I go to HQ, I'll be using Nokia 3330. How unglam right? Haha...but of course, I don't mind. It seems weird that I was so excited when I test run it yesterday. Haha..that phone reminds me of my past. Hahaha.. *Smiles*



And when all of us were about to leave, some cadets from RV came. About 3 girls and a guy, if I'm not mistaken (if you think I'm going to talk about girls/girl again, you're right!). They opened the door and I could only see a girl and instantly, I knew she's one of those going for Ex Wallaby. How did I know? Because I was around when they were waiting for their turn to be interviewed (for the Ex Wallaby). Anyway, Clement and I were walking towards the door where they were when Clement said, "ok, maybe we should use the other door." Then I replied, " Aiya, just use la not like she's covering the whole space rite.." Lolx..nevermind. She smiled at me, I think. Ok, maybe I was just being a ____. Perasantan... but I somehow I can rember that smile....shit. Haha...ok..crap...




Ok. I think this entry is abit too long. I shall update about today tomorrow. Sorry Clement. You must be sleeping by now. Hahaha...

Was pretty sleepy when I reached home yesterday night. Don't know why. Hahaz...and lately I've been sleeping only at 1 am in the morning. Not that I've got a lot to do but just that I can't sleep early. Then in the morning I will wake up like 10.30 am earliest. Lol...




Went out with Shai yesterday. Went to BBDC just to look around. Both of us really can't wait to have a car of our own. Hahaha...and then went into Hometeam just because we were bored. And then we called hakim if we could go to his house just to laze around. So off we go. Then while walking back to Bukit Gombak MRT, we saw a 2 dollar note. As in we saw it on the ground la. And shai was like searching the gronds looking for more...wakaka...but we only found another 20 cents. Lolx...



So we went to je and played pool for abt 2 hrs. Kinda fun. I think i've improved a bit la considering that I'm not a regular player. Then, we took 51 to Hakim's house.



Shawn was there too. Supposedly there were studying. They were studying. But after we came, it slowly turn into chatting, joking and of course playing. Well, what do you expect. There's a PS2 around. =)



Shai was like obviously the better player among us. Haha...and we tried doing drifting when playing Grand Turismo. Like what Shai said, drifting is a lot about instincts. I did one really good one and the bonnet was like just inches away from the divider....haha..it was like cool man..I am so going to get my NFS Most Wanted back...haha...



Then, went for class gathering. A pretty small one. Really appreciate those who came for it. At least not so xia sue la..lolx...not so malu... >.<



But I think we had a great time. And we like took so long to leave the place. Haha... it think we sat there for like almost 2 hrs lor...haha...And then we just headed home. =)


I can't help it but to notice that the number of ppl are declining since our first outing. Kinda sad. :( But nvm, maybe next time, at a more convenient time. Haha...



Can someone make me feel less stupid? Thanks to those who have. :)

200th Entry: Nothing Special


Tui Hao
by Jay Chou


Translation:


The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried


After leaving you

(I) did not regain more freedom

(From) the air


(I) smelt our distance


A heart breaking ending

is continuous just like breathing


The yellowing diary lied in the drawer(had) pressed dried [our] memories


That smile is summer


Our past

Has been forgotten as time goes by


Love after anoxia (lack of oxygen)


Careless tears are unnecessary


I know that the fault is not in either one of us


We just forgot how to step back


We made promises to each other with confidence


Yet it has been emptied by time


I know that the fault is not in either one of us


It’s just that letting go would make things easier


The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory






Aku memang pencinta wanita
Namun ku bukan buaya
Yang setia pada seribu gadisku
Hanya mencintai dia
(Pecinta Wanita by Irwansyah)

You'll be safe here
by Rivermaya



Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine



And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be


Chorus:
Close your eyes
Dry your tears
Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here



Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong



And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe



Chorus:
When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart



When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here



In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here
When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here




Absence of Significance

Just finished watching "Tangkai Jering" or "Miser". It was funny and pretty interesting.



























It was about this miser (duh..) who just graduated from university and is really eager in becoming a director. So he decided to join a filem production company as a production assistant. His extreme thrifty attitude is very well known among his friends. That's when things start to get really humurous. Imagine switching off the lights at night and use a torchlight instead just to save money. LOL...and then after that there's this 'new actress' whom he fall for. And in the end they really got together after the miser got into a "accident". Notice the open and close inverted commas? Hahaha... :-)






Read someone's blog. Somehow I got something to say about it. I'm not trying to defame you or what but just stating my opinions and sharing my thoughts. Peace!


Why bother about how well others do? You may not realize this but you have to bring yourself to seeing this. Even if they get 10 for their GPA, why bother ( Ya I know 10 is impossible, just exaggerating) ? I don't see any point in comparing yourself with others who has better grades. Like what your father said, "Different people have different learning capabilities". Its just good enough that you focus on yourself. There isn't a need to 'look out for others' you know. Eh, do sentry very tiring and boring right? Sharing what I'd picked up from Mr Steven Quek's teachings, the As will always be there for you to grab. No matter how many people get an A, there's always one for you. So don't worry, about others. Unless they ask for your help la, it doesn't hurt if they get an A also right? Can celebrate together. The more the merrier.


And man, I hope you won't resort to mugging man. Really, its no use getting so up tight and start to mug all the way. I prefer using a cup. Finish, just top up. Get what I mean? Nvm... anyway, what I think you should do is try to understand what you are learning. Your mind will have more peace that way. Of course some things you just have to memorize. Not all. I'm sure you know that. :)


In my opinion, cutting down on your other activities may not be necessary. I mean, if you plan your time well, you should be able to do all the things that you want to do. Planning. You want to win a war, planning comes first. I have this believe that nothing will work unless you start woth the 'P' word. Planning. Honestly, I'm good at planning. BUT, my execution part sucks. I like to procastinate. Anyway, in other words, PLANNING+EXECUTION=TIME MANAGEMENT. My time management is only half good but I'm working on it. For example, my plan was to study (read notes etc.) when I'm on the train to school. There and back. So, that saves me some time. But of course, I only managed to do that like 1/4 of the time only during last semester. Why? Lazy lor...haiz..still need some jelly knocking.


And like Kenny told you, be consistent. I think your school works the same way as mine. Or rather, similar, to say the most. If it does than you should maintain high marks for all the small tests, even if they take up little %. Because it helps. If you do that then you need not worry so much for your main exams.


Also, I think you should analyse your learning techniques i.e learning pace and learning method. For me, I'm quite a slow learner and given this queer brain, I need more time to register and absorb stuff. So I either have to start early, or just re-read until I really get it. For the former, that's when independent learning steps in. Why do you think I borrowed a book on programming? :)


You have to stop 'relying' help from others too much. Sometimes, you just got to do it on your own. Seek help when needed, not from beginning till the end. How they understand something is different from how you and I understand it. We are humans. But we think different.


What I want to re-emphasize is, the battle is between YOU and EXAMS. Not you and tom, dick, harry and who ever you think is a genius. So relax yourself. There's still time. :)

Today, I was a goody-goody. So I hopped down to the library at The Frontier and did some reading. After spending like 1 hr plus, I got this book.



































And suddenly I felt like such an idiot (maybe I am :X). How encouraging I must say. Should have got the book with the word 'Idiot' in it. " Idiot's guide to Java programming". Hmm..interesting. I am at page 30+ now and I'ev already got my brain damaged. Maybe I should try again later.



Downloading the SDK now. Got to go.


11010010101010110101010101101010110100000111111100101010110101010101000110



That means "YOU'RE AN IDIOT" in computer language. I bet its laughing technically at you now. Bye.

Wokay...some things regarding the Part C's...



DISCLAIMER: This is strictly for educational purposes.



It has been realised that the Part Cs this year are not performing up to the expectations. Behaviour wise, character wise and also thier ability to communicate and work soundly as one.


If you belong to the group above mentioned, you should take this seriously. Commonwealth NCC will get another silver next year or any worse results if you guys don't buck up.


You guys asked for freedom and so we give it to you since you're entitled to it. But see what's your response to the freedom. Simple tasks can't even be done. How can we ever entrust to you the lives of the over 50 cadets who are under you? I admit that I'm partly to blame because I haven't really been harsh enough. I will be harsh come next training. I can be very petty and most probably I will. All I was trying to do was to treat you all like my working partners. But you all can't even behave like a proper 15 year old.


In NCC, we have to be professional. Look at your rank. Look at the ARMY-NCC badge that you earn. What's all that for? For show? You guys are already trained enough. You guys are now leaders. Behave like one. Doesn't mean you don't have a so-called "good" post, you are not a leader. As long as you are from Part C, our juniors look at at you for example. They look at you for guidance.What is right and what is wrong.


And doesn't mean you are Part C, you all are big shots. If there are proper instructions given to you, do it. If it is something that needs to be done then do it. At this level, your co-operation is the essence of success for the company.


I was a Platoon Sergeant for my own part. For my own batch of guys. I was a sergeant and they don on the same rank as me (some are one bar less) and yet they can work together with me. In this kind of situation whereby the leader is of the same age as his own men, it requires a differnt approach. You can't just scold them or 'pump' them when they make mistakes. If you do that, you will for sure lose their respect and the matter will become worse instead. At the end of my life as a Sergeant back in secondary school, I was happy. Happy because I maintained a good relationship between myself and my platoonmates. You(refering to part c pc) have to understand them before they get to understand you. You scratch their back and they scratch yours. And whenever there is a problem, you cover their shit and they cover yours. You do things rationally, they will see it, and they will work with you willingly.


All the best to you guys, may god bless you (if I manage to turn into a monster).

Well, since I'm rotting at home, might as well do this as requested by Fizah...hahaz... :)


single, taken, crushing?
Single lor...hahaz...



are you happy with your life now?
Hmm...sort off, feeling a lil lonely...and I'm starting to think that this holiday is just getting too long. I MUST get a CCA when next sem starts. Hahaz..



when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
Well, maybe. Since she's already the right person. But I won't hurry. Slow and steady is what I want.



have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeps..can count I think but I'm over all of those already. Peace! X)



do you believe that there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
If its acceptable, I won't call it cheating already. But NO. No circumstances that I could think of.



have you ever talked about marriage with another before?
Nope...I prefer to plan on other things first. Marriage is secondary. For now.



would you ever consider adoption?
If my future-wife wants to, why not?



if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
Talk? Yeah, just go up to me and start talking. No whining though. It turns me off. TOTALLY.



do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
Dunno..haven't been into one yet. But the pros and cons are understandable. I think.



be honest, what is the furthest thing you and your ex did?
Well, no ex before so doesn't apply to me.



do you believe in love at first sight?
Isn't it the same as falling in love because of the looks? I don't know. But it is a way to start things.



are you romantic?
Man..I don't know. You want to be my guinea pig?



do you believe you can change someone?
If I believe I can, then I can. But when I try to do it, it rests on good intentions.



if you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
A pretty grand hotel I guess. Hahaz...but I don't like it big. I prefer it to be just among my family, close friends and etc. And hell to engagements. I think its a waste of money. Why not use it to get a second wife? LOL...just crapping..hahaz..but seriously, I wouldn't want an engagement. As far as possible.



do you give in easily when you are fighting?
Not when I know I'm right.



do you have feelings for someone right now?
Nope...at least not as serious as the ones I encounter before.



have you broken a heart?
I guess so. Perhaps shattered it or something. Oopps..didn't mean to anyway..haha



if 1 day, your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with, what will you do?
I'll punch the guy into smithereens and stuff his head through the toilet bowl. No la...just kidding. Depends on situation...depends...if its not meant to be, then I'll just take it as that. Whatever it is, I'll let the girl decide. Don't see the point of fighting.



are you missing someone right now?
I miss more of the moments...yep, well I miss my Sports class..and my CSS NCC and hockey mates...yeah, those were the good times...



now, you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. write their names down.
1. Shahid
2. Haikal
3. CM
4. Woei Luen
5. Clement
6. Cheryl
7. Yi Ting
8. xq
9. Everyone!!!