Haiz...how can I forget that I already had my last paper which equates to the official last day of my second year? Must be too much thinking about NCC la...haha...I didn't even imagine that I would be this 'busy' doing NCC stuff. But I enjoy doing them. :)


Trainfire today was a pleasant experience. Teachers were co-operative. Especially the one from RV. He up la. He understands our postition and yeah, really treat us like CLTs. One of the few teachers I wouldn't mind doing things for. He even thank us for teaching his cadets. Anyway, since he so good to us, I teach them swee swee la...not that other cadets I won't do the same way but because his attiude towards us is good, its just human nature that I would want to do the same to him. I salute you sir! :)


Plus, his cadets, both boys and girls didn't give problems. And most of them were taught quite well as compared to other schools. The only downside of them is their bearing(some of them) and their marching. But I'm optimistic that they will improve on that. With such a TO with high standards, I think its only a matter of time before they become one of the tops.


Even the teacher in charge of Bukit Batok was okay today. Heard that he wasn't that nice last time. Still can joke with us about some pronunciation of english words. LOL.


Talking about teacher-clt relationship, the last time I remember having a good rapport with them was during my first climb to Mt Ophir as a clt. Maybe there were others after that but not that signicficant la...haha.


Anyway, I think I need to brush up on my trainfire prior to Spec Course. A bit of loopholes here and there during testing just now. Anyway, don't worry la Sgt Eric...I will be kilat once Spec course comes. Hehes. :D


Hahaz...this is more like an entry of NCC than my school stuff. Anyway, back to school, preparation for Cambodia trip will start on the 5th. Will be busy from that day onwards. Hopefully Ben will join us la...he so unpredicatable one. Problem la...


Ok la...before I go, 1 more wish. Hope that they find that Mat Selamat soon. With him on the loose, its quite scary.


Adios. Yankee coy! Zulu coy! Roll out!

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Aku masih sayang?

I was introduced to the true essence of the meaning of that word from Introduction to Psychology class. And I find that it is an area which is worth dedicating to. Improving on one's hardiness helps alot.


When going back there, I don't see it in them. And I question myself, what should I do to make these people see that they need to have this character. I've tried giving them the heat. But receive negative response. I suppose it's not clear to them its for their own good. Before them lies this one big concrete wall that shields them away from this message.

Actually, there are some other questions.

Weren't the trainings they had supposed to make them more resilient?
What's going to happen to them when they move on to the outside world?
What happened to making do with what you had?
What happened to being strong and facing challenges?


It is not necessarily physical. It's more of the mentality that I'm talking about.
Somehow, when they get 'smarter', they become weaker.


You might escape the heat now. But you may not survive the next one.
Denial is just postponing the problem.



I want to impart, yet they don't want to receive. Anyhow, at the end of the day, I'm not the one at the losing end. You are. You decide guys. You decide.



"Its more cruel out there."
-MSG Chun Keong,
ex-CSS NCC Company Sergeant Major

I can't resist the need to blog about this. It's just way beyond my expectations. Not at the positive spectrum of it that is.

I thought leaving them would do some good. Initially, I didn't want to but after considering what some people said, I decided. Fine. If you guys want to do it your way, well, I'll just back off. Little did I know that they were going to cross line(or should I say already had). I guess it was a pretty 'good' timing that we came back. To keep ourselves updated that is. I don't know as of now whether it was a personal thing or someone suggested it or whatever else. All I know is that it is blatantly wrong and disappointing. Looking at what post you are holding. Looking at the fact that we entrusted you with the duty to take care of them. The funny thing is, did anyone tried to stop it? Yes? No? I don't know. Have not fully investigated the whole thing yet. I don't intend to. This is the job of the higher authorities. I won't poke my nose into this.

So is this the attention that you wish to get? I should give you guys the title 'outstanding' should't I? A letter from the government sia...not bad lei...


Nevertheless, if found guilty of such charges, I recommend that he be removed from where he is now. Reason: He's too 'dangerous'.







LOL. You know, I seriously don't feel like acknowledging you as a person who exists. I've had enough of your nonsense. Your presence really spoils my day. What have I done to deserve this. I'm not one of your puppets please. I don't allow people to use me. Words, words and more words. That's all there is? I admit I'm not good with words. You do. And I applaud you for that. I am amazed and at the same time bewildered at the magic that you can conjure. Yeah. Somehow I only find your name on my hate list. Well, that's an achievement isn't it?

Therefore, I hope that I won't be able to see you again. Lest, my emotions will run amok and my emotion control system will be deem as unstable. And seriously, just fuck off. Don't bother about me okay.

One more thing. You are the thing that forced me to treat you this way. Yes, I'm a hypocrite. Towards you only. Consider it a special treatment aite. Peace!

You ah. Haiz. Sorry to hear that you kena screwed la. Well, our idea of wake up call didn't work. In fact you didn't even realize it. What to do...Hopefully, this will point to the direction to the people you are suppose to trust and support. You have always wanted things from us. Our time. Our committment. But have you supported our ideas? Suggestions? And again, we don't belong to you okay. We belong to the 'bigger tree'. If things go wrong, don't point at us. If things go well, we are not included as part of it, true?

Haha. Like that want to advance ah? Siao liao la...vomit blood. Lao pee hui. Everywhere also blood. But seriously I don't blame you guys la. 1 training only. 1 ONLY. Some even worse. ZERO. Like that one ah? Wah, you guys damn pitiful lei...must be the CLT la...damn bastard one rite. Don't know how to tell earlier. Also cannot blame the SSGT mah...I mean, he so stressed out. Some more got school work. Got other things oso mah...so ya la...must be the CLT la...haiya...

One word: Excuses.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Don't consider what I've written above la. Just ranting. Petty stuff.

Test today was okay. Can pass la. Got chance to get A also. 1st time went out of the exam class before time's up. Hehe. But stay longer no use la. Brain dead and jammed already. IA IA no feeding. Remedy: Piah the best you can and hope for the best. xD

Oh yes. My statement of the day. I regret going back today. I should have gone HQ instead. :..(

Tomorrow will be my first paper. The toughest of all. I'm kinda ready for it. Nevertheless, I'm not very sure of doing well. This time preparations had been rather skimpy. Suddenly my study week became so busy and robbed me off some time I had set aside initially for revision. Well, life's an irony as they say.


Morale has been low. I don't seem to be looking forward anything. Whatever it is, I'll just keep in mind its only a few more days. After which its party time.


Maybe I'm just tired. Things will get better!!! Yeah. Hope so.

I consider today my last day of school.





No more lectures.
No more tutorials.
No more projects.


Well...at least for the time being. Haha. Next week will be study week. Planning to go school to study. The A380 would be a nice place. I've a feeling there'll be a lot of people at the library. Even the better. Then its more likely that the scenery would be much more beautiful. Hehe...if you know what I mean. ;)


This term had started off slow but ended almost badly. My friends and I used to chiong our projects first so that we need not do so much towards the end. But this time, we barely meet the deadline. A bit sian la...But now, can relax a little since the burden of projects has totally been lifted.


Had the first OCP meeting today. Get to know the rest of the team. Some were familiar faces. Anyways, will be working with them soon for a couple of months. THAT will be the next project. But I think I'll enjoy this one la... :)


Ouh ya...also 'celebrated' by eating Lemon Chicken today. I don't think I'll be eating it anytime soon so yeah, took the chance today to savour it. Yeah... :)


Sadly though, god didn't grant me my wish of seeing 5 for the 'last' time. Haiz...sad la. :(


Hockey friendly tomorrow against VJC. Its been a while since I played hockey. I hope I don't faint tomorrow. :P


I guess that's it for today. All the best to those taking exams. :)))








P.S: I'm addicted to D.Gray Man!

Can't think of any title for this post hence just 'toot'. I'll do likewise in future.


Went down to Westmall today with my parents. Luckily the queue wasn't that long though the processing time took quite a while. But well, that's understandable because we were thinking of changing to Mio plan. Hopefully it helps in cutting down the household expenditure. So due to that, my father got a new phone too. SE w880i. Frankly speaking I don't see much difference between walkman phones and the normal SE phones. So why the big difference in costs? Need some enlightenment here. o_O


Nothing much for today.


Have been thinking about this for a while.

Is it worse to be helpless in an unreciprocated love or
not feeling the love feeling at all?

I attended tutorial today. And I got back my quiz marks. Maybe the good results had me talking a tad more than normal. Scored full marks. Well, I did expected it and that's because I had really studied for the test. Anyway, there are a few others who got full marks too so its not really a big deal.


Anyways, my tutor caught me talking(well, I was sitting in the first row). And because of that he asked me a question probably to sort off prove to me that talking in his class was a really bad idea.


T: Give me the 4 types of controllers.
S: P, I, PI, PID

I thought he would already stop asking but then he persisted. -__-"

T: What does each of them mean?
S: Err... P is proportional, I is integral, PI is proportional and integral and PID is proportional, integral and derivative.
T: Ok he knows his work.

HAHAHAHA. Paiseh la cher....LOL...


But luckily he didn't ask me any further because I would be unable to answer.
And luckily also I suddenly decided to read up before class. LOL. If I hadn't done that, I confirm chop stamp kena screw. :P



I really wish this sem will end faster.

Fuckhow.

Seriously, this 3-letter word is getting on my nerves. And if I can, I'd already fuck the middle hole of this word. People keep asking me, how how how how. Fuck it la! That's how. Urghhh...


What an irritant.






















Learning points from CF:

• In the end, you're the one holding the post, you're responsible. That's all there is to it.
• Brief your people properly.
• Updates to be made known to appropiate people. (Its just like a close loop system and all that engineering shit)
• Make your expectations/instructions/explanations clear to the intended people.
• Visualize in detail on what's going to happen. Go through your plan in your head and identify problems.
• Check out where's the mistake when everything starts to go out of hand. After which act fast.
• Inspire/win their hearts/motivate them more instead of just scolding/lecturing/ranting.
• Insist on safety. Afterall, you're in-charge.
• Make sure your team is covering all areas of operation. Prevention is always better than cure.

Things that are to stay:

• Temperament control.
• Dealing tactfully with superiors/other personnel.
• Not pushing all duties to people under you. Keeping in mind they are not your dogs.
• Motivating of cadets.
• Enjoying the stuff that you do (emotion focus technique).
• Command and control of havoc situations.
• Rectifying of problems on the spot.
• Listening to suggestions from your people.
• Professionalism.

That's for CF 1 '08.

Hope. Faith. Move.

It has been a tiring week for me. No doubt about that. And only now that I have the time to blog. Let's see why my week had become so happening.


Booked in on Sunday night for CF. HQ felt kinda different. The guard house people were being kuai lan. Even after showing our pass, he still wanted us to sign in. But nevermind...mayb he's a newbie..Ooopss...Then there were wild dogs around, not 1 but a few...can't remember seeing any dogs in HQ other than the Dr A B's dog. The air also felt different. It felt suffocating and the stillness of the whole place just wasn't what I remembered HQ to be.


Anyway, went straight to West office and slacked around. It was still messy as ever. After almost everyone was around, briefing took place at Learning Terrace. Felt out of place and so old because the majority were 54th people. LOL. Like what CM said, "generation gap". Hahaz...imagine that these officers were once your cadets. And some of them or rather a handful were cadets whom we brought to Mt Ophir.


Went back to 245 for the night. Played foosball. Watched football. Ouh ya, and mini golf too. Had loads of fun playing the foosball. Kinda fun and entertaining. Own goals were of higher probability as compared to the real game. Or maybe we were just noobs. LOLs...


Sleeping was a chore. Mosquitoes raided the bunk. It was already almost 4 when we decided to turn in for the night. And had to woke up at 5.30am. And the bloody mosquitoes were giving us trouble. I can't even remember whether I really did sleep. I was probably sleeping half awake. The most horrible thing was that when we woke up, we found out that we need not wake up so early. Reveille was pushed back to a later time without most of us knowing. Haha...felt kinda dumb la...not to mention the lack of sleep.


Inprocessing was okay. Schools came in quite early(read as: none were very late). The cadets did their ice-breakng stuff with their PCs and APCs. Then, lunch came. I nearly lost my cool here. Have you seen people throwing rubbish into a dustbin which is already so full of rubbish. Not only was it full, it was mountain full! No wonder they say, "Treat cadets like idiots." Haiz...And more disheartheningly was that some were instructors. How nice. I don't remember who though. I don't want to. Ordered things to be stop and lectured them a bit. In the end, everything was settled though. Albeit at the cost of being messy and the horrendous, unacceptable sight. FYI, this is the first time in my whole experience as a CLT that I encounter such a degree of filth. Very,very bad. Spoilt. Spoilt children.


After which me and my logistic people went to the bunks to do some checking and settled the bunk allocation. The number of cadets this time amounted to 262. And that's a pretty huge number for CF. Anyway, there were just enough bunks for them.


Dinner came and I was glad that what I said earlier had not been ignored. The cadets proceeded with their cohesion night while I stayed at the Ops Room for a while to collate the bunk allocation documents. Little did I know that there was a typo which had a pretty devastating effect.
After supper all the cadets were at 246 waiting to be briefed. I did my brieifing and started to send them up to their bunks. It was again a very messy process. And somehow the problem of seemingly not enough space for the cadets cropped up again. Everything was so messy that it didn't occured to me to check what went wrong. And after everything was over, my heart sank when I found out that there were 2 empty bunks. 2 bunks that could easily fit 44 cadets. I definitely felt like killing myself. But I laughed it off anyway. LOLs...


Slept at Ops Room for the night. It was a good sleep although the period was not very long. Woke up at 4.30 lazily and went to bath. Shower was good. Freshened me up. Did my morning prayers (the only 1 for the whole camp ): ). Breakfast was readied by my my log ppl. They learnt fast and pretty reliable too. Kudos to them. Welcome to the club!


The cadets did brought down ALMOST all the stuff(blankets, bedsheets,pillow cases) like I've instructed the night before. I was quite happy until I went to one of the rooms and ALL the stuff were not brought down even though they were already packed. -__-"


The cadets went for breakfast before continuing with their activities. Lunch came and the cadets or rather some of them created another big problem. While bringing the rubbish bag to the rubbish dump, a few of them DRAGGED the rubbish bag on the ground. Even after I told them on the spot not to do it, they ignored my words. You no need to be a rocket scientist to predict what happens next. It happened and left rubbish a trail. In the end its me and my Log people who had to get down and clean up the mess. Wth.


Went to collect the blankets and stuff and it was kidna fun. Haha...the log team plus Sgt Eric and the cadet helpers worked swiftly and by about 1 hour everything was settled. :)


After which the log team's work are unofficially over.


Oh yes. I didn't manage to say this but then I'll just say it here. Thanks a lot to those who had helped the log team in their duties i.e the 2 admin members plus the cadet specs W/O being asked. That's nice. Preparing for meals were much faster with their help. THANKS A LOT! Swee swee boh kway chwee. :D

Man this post is getting rather long. The learning points I shall save for another post. Now I'll just summarise the rest of the week.




Wednesday.
Had lab test. Managed to complete in the end. Had a few problems at the beginning. Then stayed back till late due to Psycho lecture. After which went to workshop to do machining. Around 0730 the technician there said just leave the rest to them. We could go home already. Thanks a lot to him. Reached home and just slacked all the way till 11 before catching my favourite anime.


Thursday.
Woke up early to go swimming. On the way, had a change of plans and had to adapt to the situation. Went to extend my passport but they said I had to change to a new book and pay 70 bucks. Wtf. And the lady at the counter was like a little kuai lan. And so I just left la without enquiring much further. I hate talking to kuai lan people...After which went to Beach Rd to help Clement buy his jockey cap but shop close. Went to Mustafa Centre to get my cd, but don't have. Asked a staff there and he just said no without checking. Kuai lan no.2. Rushed home. Went out again to go for IMT. IMT was okay. Normal stuff. Shooting practice for CLTs was cool. Get to shot fig. 15 and moving targets. Cool stuff. Then went to banquet to eat dinner. After which home sweet home.


Friday.
Morning lessons as usual. After that prayers. After prayers had to went back to school to do touch up on the machined parts. Had trouble screwing holes. I suppose human holes would be easier. XD But nvm... Then went home and reached at around 7 plus. Studied for psycho test till 11. Watched another one of my favourite animes. Oh ya...met 5 again today. Alone. Twice. Stunned. And saw her on Wed too. She looked pretty shy. LOL..


Saturday.
Psycho test in morning. Chop chop and then went home. The rest was spent sleeping and TV-ing.


Ok that's about it.


He looks kinda cute doing tt...
Aiya don't say littat la...



LOL..Hehes..Smile more lei...haha


HQ NCC!