Finally got the time to blog...currently going through hot waters...anyways yesterday went east coast park to rollerblade...freaking tiring...cuz we had to blade for a quite a long distance...endurance was really tested yesterday...its been a long time since i suffer physically...to add on I missed my morning meal...was glad that i had a fun experience anyway...

i didn't thought it has to come down to this...i'm going to make myself clear...somehow i'm getting more confused...thoughts,ideologies all tangled up...all i'm going to say is how am i going to pick up from here...people like wise man and kim are making my head spin...making me feel groggy...thanks for trying to straighten the issues out yar...but it ain't make me feel any better...

Before carrying on...u ppl out there reading better read and understand what i'm writing carefully...cuz i am seeing to many misunderstandings here...mayb my english is not conceivable..

1st things first...the respect that im giving the udis will be given..BUT at its lowest level...the basic respect for a udi to put it in simpler terms...cuz i'm actually only respecting the post and the rank given to them...and not them as an individual or as a whole...BUT there will be some of the udis that will not be under this treatment...in fact only 2 of them...they will receive better treatment yar...

2nd...what's going to happen is that...im going to turn evil...i hope this will b confined to NCC only...cuz i dun think its fair for my other frenz r the other ppl around me...punishments will increase stage by stage...like what mr quek said, progression...if the rest won't do it...then i guess i have to start the ball rolling...welfare will be compromised...to be more detailed, i will be stricter...more push ups, more physical training...i'm going to act like a catalytic converter...the one who speeds up reaction...

Therefore, my demands will be higher...i will squeeze them...make them go through the hardship...so that they will understand and hopefully able to cope with other obstacles in life which will definitely be worse and more challenging...like what one of my ex master sergeants once said "the society will be much harsher and cruel"...so I hope that my juniors will understand that i mean them no harm...but i want to tell them" look..its going to be much harder out there.." i've tasted the harshness of ncc training..used to...its all history now...but i'm glad i've come this far...knowing that im equipped...so i may be harsher towards my juniors from next training onwards...hope u all will not look at me in the wrong perspective..even though i very well know tt u all will...

my intentions of writing this is actually for my own reference...to drive myself to drive others...

next thing...i may be giving a cold shoulder to SOME of the udis..just want to let u all know tt it cant be help...it juz too bad...and to kenny...i pray really hard that u will become the CSM...i used to not pray for that cuz i was happy and sure tt u will..but looking at the way things are now...the unexpected turnout...i guess i have to...this is specially to kenny...my best wishes for u...gd luck ahead...hope that miracles will help u along the way in ur coming months in ncc life...cuz u r going to need all the miracles, gd lucks that u can get...

and to ncc..may u be saved from the hands of those who are out there to eradicate ur dying spirit...

::: Doing my best :::