climax...
Anger taking its peak for today...actually it leans more on dissapointment but hell I ain't feel good...owe some ppl testis..I hope u all will wait patiently for them cuz I am really feeling kinda of squeeezy and I need some breathing space...some low lying morons out there thinks that kindness,patience, and respect comes for free..really feeling confused now...mayb what I'm writting won't be much of sense...
Went to school happily today...cuz I was given the opportunity to umpire several floorball games at school...pretty tough job though...and man it was tiring cuz there were only the five of us and we had to carry a whole load of equipment to the basketball court for the game...it was actually a floorball competition among 4 NPCC units around the area...so there were other schools taking part...too bad didn't really look out for pretty gals...basically becusz its hot and I can't really b bothered...maybe got some...caught some glimpses...it was really an experience though...
then lesson was short for today...only 2 hrs for me today...then went for some freaking ncc business...this is where the root of most of my evil traits lies...they really suck my blood...blood suckers...went up to ncc room to take the attendance book..then went down to take the attendance of my fellow sec 3 cadets...poor attendance...and guess what...the sir scolded me...well not only scolded but he literally shouted at my face...to be optimistic...i was quite happy at my reaction..stood my ground... didn't even flinch...so what if he just come back from his exams...he chose to come back and help the unit...and for the poor attendance...was it really my fault? what im not happy with is that he's venting his anger on me...moreover i'm only the ASSISTANT PLATOON COMMANDER...and the platoon commander wasn't even there...what the hell...well i kept my cool and i am pretty proud of it...went up to call the rest then...i wasn't really happy with my superiors about the chosen UDI's and now they are doing this to me...and ya...the five are chosen and there isn't any changes...the first word that comes to mind was ''die''...ncc is practically not breathing...slacking...standard sliding down like a snow sled going down a mountain slope...went home with a heavy heart...recalled back the days of sufferings that I experienced...thought that it will all be paid back...but it wasn't really paid back...at least that's what i think...but of course...the values attained from those sacred experiences are priceless and can't be robbed off...i really thank god for that...cuz basically that's what is left for me...while i'm writing this those memories slipped into my mind one after another...and i pity my juniors cuz they are not getting this priveleges...and i really mean those sufferings as benefits and priveleges...so sad...what's the reason? cuz CSS NCC is moving towards welfare...why? cuz most of the five chosen ones are a bunch of people who gives all the welfare that they can possibly give...and what's the result? simple logic will tell you that standard will drop...fitness will go down the drain...and so on and so forth...to put it in the simplest way which even the retard can understand is without hardwork, quality results will never come to your doorstep...welfare, welfare and more welfare...that's all that they can think of...fun, fun and more fun...zero seriousness in training...might as well don't train...and still can be chosen to be a UDI...the ''fun culture'',as of how mr quek's put it, is creeping into this CCA which is supposedly to consist of people who are equipped with moral values like discipline and the likes of it...is skipping school a sign of good moral value? how about being retained? the answer is obvious...i'm going to see the downfall...mayb i'm going to sit back and relax and do whatever I can and then enjoy the ''movie''...
::: What goes around, comes around :::
Went to school happily today...cuz I was given the opportunity to umpire several floorball games at school...pretty tough job though...and man it was tiring cuz there were only the five of us and we had to carry a whole load of equipment to the basketball court for the game...it was actually a floorball competition among 4 NPCC units around the area...so there were other schools taking part...too bad didn't really look out for pretty gals...basically becusz its hot and I can't really b bothered...maybe got some...caught some glimpses...it was really an experience though...
then lesson was short for today...only 2 hrs for me today...then went for some freaking ncc business...this is where the root of most of my evil traits lies...they really suck my blood...blood suckers...went up to ncc room to take the attendance book..then went down to take the attendance of my fellow sec 3 cadets...poor attendance...and guess what...the sir scolded me...well not only scolded but he literally shouted at my face...to be optimistic...i was quite happy at my reaction..stood my ground... didn't even flinch...so what if he just come back from his exams...he chose to come back and help the unit...and for the poor attendance...was it really my fault? what im not happy with is that he's venting his anger on me...moreover i'm only the ASSISTANT PLATOON COMMANDER...and the platoon commander wasn't even there...what the hell...well i kept my cool and i am pretty proud of it...went up to call the rest then...i wasn't really happy with my superiors about the chosen UDI's and now they are doing this to me...and ya...the five are chosen and there isn't any changes...the first word that comes to mind was ''die''...ncc is practically not breathing...slacking...standard sliding down like a snow sled going down a mountain slope...went home with a heavy heart...recalled back the days of sufferings that I experienced...thought that it will all be paid back...but it wasn't really paid back...at least that's what i think...but of course...the values attained from those sacred experiences are priceless and can't be robbed off...i really thank god for that...cuz basically that's what is left for me...while i'm writing this those memories slipped into my mind one after another...and i pity my juniors cuz they are not getting this priveleges...and i really mean those sufferings as benefits and priveleges...so sad...what's the reason? cuz CSS NCC is moving towards welfare...why? cuz most of the five chosen ones are a bunch of people who gives all the welfare that they can possibly give...and what's the result? simple logic will tell you that standard will drop...fitness will go down the drain...and so on and so forth...to put it in the simplest way which even the retard can understand is without hardwork, quality results will never come to your doorstep...welfare, welfare and more welfare...that's all that they can think of...fun, fun and more fun...zero seriousness in training...might as well don't train...and still can be chosen to be a UDI...the ''fun culture'',as of how mr quek's put it, is creeping into this CCA which is supposedly to consist of people who are equipped with moral values like discipline and the likes of it...is skipping school a sign of good moral value? how about being retained? the answer is obvious...i'm going to see the downfall...mayb i'm going to sit back and relax and do whatever I can and then enjoy the ''movie''...
::: What goes around, comes around :::