I can't believe this. I'm actually feeling a tinge of hatred. Somehow, through the passage of time my heart has been inured by the actions of people. I guess I'm not strong as yet, emotionally and spiritually.

I can't seem to stop myself from thinking bad about others. What is happening to me...I don't know. I guess I'm kinda lost. Feeling pretty sad because of things that I'm not doing right I think. Sometimes, I wished that I have not come to Commonwealth. But as I think of it again, I know and can see that I was brought to this school for a hell lot of reasons of which is healthy for my development and growth.

I've came across a Malay poem in the newspaper today. It's nice even though it is composed by just simple words. Nevertheless, it leaves a mark. Nice poem.

So here it is, the poem.

DIAM

Berdiam diri bukan bererti satu kebodohan
Kerana banyaknya bercakap adakalanya
mengundang kepalsuan
Bilamana kepalsuan sudah tercipta
Maka diam itu akan lebih mulia
Di kala berdiam
Usah dipandang satu kekalahan
Kerana diamnya penuh dengan pengertian
Ia membawa ke arah kemuliaan
Jangan mengganggap berdiam itu satu penghinaan
Hanya kerana tidak mahu luahkan perasaan
Bisa juga diamnya berisi membuahkan
ilmu bijaksana
Ilmu yang bakal dikongsi bersama
Jika tidak ada apa-apa yang perlu diperkatakan
Berdiamlah itu yang seelok-eloknya
Jadilah seperti diam-diam ubi berisi
Bukan diam-diam ubi berkarat

Faridah Taib

Hmm..looking at the poet's name, I wonder if she is Mirshasha's sister. Well, anyway, that's it. Hope that this week will be much better.

::: I want to be a Captain :::