games day is fun.
Muahahaz...I'm getting pretty psychotic nowadays. Yar. Spastic horse. That's what Kenny commented during NCC training last Tuesday. Let's see what I did during that training...
I went down to the part A then I told Hakim that I wanted to test their drills because I haven't heard and seen theirs before. They were at the parade square in front of the flag poles and behind were the netball girls training. So then they were like damn serious. I gave out the command but I tricked them lar...by saying semula.right after that I laughed a horendous laughter. I laughed damn loud and very spastic lar...I felt awkward myself. then almost kena kick by kenny. ok lar..telling it here might not sound funny...only the ppl there will know it...
Anyway, had games day on thursday. Got 1 medal. bronze. Feeling? nothing.nothing.nothing.
I'm really sorry to the other 3 ppl who were in the team..i actually didn't expect to win..don't ask me why..but yar...i wasn't really enthusiastic abt it. my idea was go there..run, go home. dun care whether lose or win. What im sure is that I run my race with everything that I have. Don't get the wrong idea..it doesn't mean that i didn't do my best or what...its just that inside me...hopeless. tt's the reason why i was so cool headed that day...still could play a little bit of soccer before that. yar practically, I didn't really care whether we win or not.
but the result was cool. not abt the medal lar. but more on my performance. a few came up to tell me tt i was damn fast. took yaba pills..wadeva...i dunno lar...i juz feel that I wanted to get it over and done with. And i actually kept my promise to haikal. I was there first. yay. I still can recall that run of 100m long. i savour more of that moments when i started and ended rather than the win. when at the starting line, my pulse was increasing but not very bad...i kept myself relax..because i didn'treally care abt the outcome. Lose lose lar..so what..yar..that was what my attitude was that day.
Then went home with Jason. Cool man. I feel great talking to him. Haven't had a long talk with him for quite a while. And I was right. He has changed and I'm glad it's for the better. At least this friend of mine is 'improving' and actually know what his problem is and tries to rectify it. I feel happy for him. We actually brgin to open up more to each other.
Today had hockey tournament. Pretty boring in the beginning. I actually didn't feel like playing. Feeling pretty lousy these days. I think Mdm Ros noticed it in my face. I wasn't really being myself. And then she like sort of make jokes and it sent me off laughing. But it has pretty little effect. The 'lousiness' feeling was even greater when things went wrong in the middle of the tournament. Tuck Wen was with me in the defence. Through my perspective, he did made mistakes and since I was like feeling shitty, I sort of scolded him a lot. But ya...his play irritated me to the max today. It was lucky that I was tired. It could have been much worse. And yar...one of the Northland boys questioned whether was I 'gila'. Yeah man...you bet, I was. Then in the quater-finals match, I scolded Tuck Wen really badly and he was like telling me not to scold him too much because he was doing his best. I was pissed so I didn't really reply. Mdm Ros was like sort of on my side. She told Tuck Wen what was the real complication and told him what are the changes that are to be made.I was like..ok lar...to me, whatever....ya I know ALL of us are trying our best. Sorry manz..maybe I got PMS today.
And today, it is actually Nikeman's( mr peter lim ) bitrhday. And the hockey boys were cute. Alvin consolidated the money from us and then bought some cake for him and Mdm Ros when we were going home. And the cute part was we sang Mr Lim a birthday song outside Raffles Shopping Centre where the Cafe Larte is. It was pretty nice and Mr Lim's face was like so red. Hahaz...hockey rawks.
Then some of the hockey boys went to eat at Burger King. We did talk about a lot of things and shared personal information. We exchanged views and it was pretty good. All of us talking and laughing together, eating together. I just hoped that it was the whole team there. I get to know that I'm not really alone in this world. There are actually people who thinks the same way as I do. Basically it was nice spending time with them especially now that we are going to resign from hockey soon. Hmm...sad..hockey is so fun...
Oh ya..one last thing. I now have a clearer picture of what ego really means. After looking at the dictionary's definition of ego and its likes and after having a living example, I get to see what ego really is and some of its effects.
::: He's so ego :::
I went down to the part A then I told Hakim that I wanted to test their drills because I haven't heard and seen theirs before. They were at the parade square in front of the flag poles and behind were the netball girls training. So then they were like damn serious. I gave out the command but I tricked them lar...by saying semula.right after that I laughed a horendous laughter. I laughed damn loud and very spastic lar...I felt awkward myself. then almost kena kick by kenny. ok lar..telling it here might not sound funny...only the ppl there will know it...
Anyway, had games day on thursday. Got 1 medal. bronze. Feeling? nothing.nothing.nothing.
I'm really sorry to the other 3 ppl who were in the team..i actually didn't expect to win..don't ask me why..but yar...i wasn't really enthusiastic abt it. my idea was go there..run, go home. dun care whether lose or win. What im sure is that I run my race with everything that I have. Don't get the wrong idea..it doesn't mean that i didn't do my best or what...its just that inside me...hopeless. tt's the reason why i was so cool headed that day...still could play a little bit of soccer before that. yar practically, I didn't really care whether we win or not.
but the result was cool. not abt the medal lar. but more on my performance. a few came up to tell me tt i was damn fast. took yaba pills..wadeva...i dunno lar...i juz feel that I wanted to get it over and done with. And i actually kept my promise to haikal. I was there first. yay. I still can recall that run of 100m long. i savour more of that moments when i started and ended rather than the win. when at the starting line, my pulse was increasing but not very bad...i kept myself relax..because i didn'treally care abt the outcome. Lose lose lar..so what..yar..that was what my attitude was that day.
Then went home with Jason. Cool man. I feel great talking to him. Haven't had a long talk with him for quite a while. And I was right. He has changed and I'm glad it's for the better. At least this friend of mine is 'improving' and actually know what his problem is and tries to rectify it. I feel happy for him. We actually brgin to open up more to each other.
Today had hockey tournament. Pretty boring in the beginning. I actually didn't feel like playing. Feeling pretty lousy these days. I think Mdm Ros noticed it in my face. I wasn't really being myself. And then she like sort of make jokes and it sent me off laughing. But it has pretty little effect. The 'lousiness' feeling was even greater when things went wrong in the middle of the tournament. Tuck Wen was with me in the defence. Through my perspective, he did made mistakes and since I was like feeling shitty, I sort of scolded him a lot. But ya...his play irritated me to the max today. It was lucky that I was tired. It could have been much worse. And yar...one of the Northland boys questioned whether was I 'gila'. Yeah man...you bet, I was. Then in the quater-finals match, I scolded Tuck Wen really badly and he was like telling me not to scold him too much because he was doing his best. I was pissed so I didn't really reply. Mdm Ros was like sort of on my side. She told Tuck Wen what was the real complication and told him what are the changes that are to be made.I was like..ok lar...to me, whatever....ya I know ALL of us are trying our best. Sorry manz..maybe I got PMS today.
And today, it is actually Nikeman's( mr peter lim ) bitrhday. And the hockey boys were cute. Alvin consolidated the money from us and then bought some cake for him and Mdm Ros when we were going home. And the cute part was we sang Mr Lim a birthday song outside Raffles Shopping Centre where the Cafe Larte is. It was pretty nice and Mr Lim's face was like so red. Hahaz...hockey rawks.
Then some of the hockey boys went to eat at Burger King. We did talk about a lot of things and shared personal information. We exchanged views and it was pretty good. All of us talking and laughing together, eating together. I just hoped that it was the whole team there. I get to know that I'm not really alone in this world. There are actually people who thinks the same way as I do. Basically it was nice spending time with them especially now that we are going to resign from hockey soon. Hmm...sad..hockey is so fun...
Oh ya..one last thing. I now have a clearer picture of what ego really means. After looking at the dictionary's definition of ego and its likes and after having a living example, I get to see what ego really is and some of its effects.
::: He's so ego :::