Sigh.Sigh.Sigh. I pity you but I will never regret what I had done a few hours ago. I've sent say two missiles over. You should have received one of them already. I am your friend. So i have to be like one. even though my actions will actually hurt you but you must keep in mind that this is for your own good. You're out of your mind do you know that? Why did you over stepped the border? Now you've coerced me into the war. I've no choice but to fight it...I side the right thing and the truth...unfortunately, you are not on my side. Ive tried to discourage your acts. I didn't want to interfere your personal stuff. But you have forced me to do this. You have dragged me in. Why in the freaking hell are you cutting your own throat? Why? Im sure you're intelligent enough to not do it. Maybe you can't control yourself. So did I do enough on my part to prevent you from getting too far? Did I? Maybe I was letting you go. I somehow felt that this is going to happen...I can't really bear with it. When SHE called, I know that I'm going to be in a rage. I was almost seething with anger. Why must you get me involved? Huh? It's not that I don't want to help. But you are putting me in a terribly difficult position. I've seen signs of deterimentals in you. Going out of hand. Changing ''personality''. Skipping CCA. Putting her on top of everything else was a bloody wrong decision. Hey wake up damn it..wake up!!!! You are not only causing harm to yourself but to others else well..especially people who really care for you...and you've been given alarms on this, you were given ample warnings....why don't you amend your mistakes? Why damn it?? I know its hard to suppress your emotional needs but have you spare a thought for those who really really loves you? Damn it sometimes love hurts. Not only to a couple but to the people around it. For a moment i wanted to blame ur partner but then the problem lies in you. Im telling you this. You better wake up before something worse happens. Youve broken someone's heart and you really should try to get it back...i reminded you..gave you advice..you didn't heed..i told myself fine..probably you can handle it carefully but instead youre doing damage. If you want to do these type of thing...do it cleverly...HOWEVER..I'm not encouraging you to do it still..cus this is under table method...nasty..cunning...Wake up alright. Wake up. I can't be bothered anymore.

Who in the freaking hell spoilt my ncc badges????!!!! Ok lar..actually I'm not that angry but im really amazed by what you have done to my badges..I don't know who did it..how it was done..cuz it was really seem to be impossible.my badge was bend..and when I tried bending it back..I needed the hammer!!! Woah this is really a mystery...luckily my mt ophir badge wasn't spoilt..it was the most valuable one..i really treasure it..cuz it represents my committment and wits..

Lately, i don't know why but I tend to make pple laugh and make myself laugh too. I really don't know why am i so ''sensitive''. Laugh too easily. But its good. I feel happy. relieved. And it feels great. Keep my hopes pretty high up. And during CME lesson..man yi ting you really know how to get back at me don't you? During CME class we, the class had to give each other words of encouragement and this was roughly what Yi ting gave me.."Keep working so that you won' tbe single next valentine." haha.. i really laugh off it..ok lar..i know i'm not that great but no need to tell me rite..I know..hahaz..so funny...then mdm ros go and fire it up some more...say something about deluding yourself when getting rejected by someone..tell yourself things like " she's not worthy of you" bla bla bla..hahaz really funny..smiled when I recalled back the lesson..and now CME is on marriage...and I'm getting the teases again..haha..nevermind as long as its funny...hahaz

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::: Ceasefire :::