What a day today...dunno how to describe it..pretty weird..very weird...suddenly evrything goes up to the surface...or at least close to that...now...im really stuck...dunno which way to go...received that piece of news...supposed to make me happy...it did but the other half of my heart felt depressed...i dunno why suddenly there is this rush of stress and pressure on me...i am like what the heck is happening to me? arghh.....crap.crap.crap.

i know that my wish had come true...but it turn out to be at the wrong time...but does time really matter now? things change...and they change fast...im panting like mad trying to cope and adapt to the situation...somehow im given another surprise...so what am i suppose to do? On the surface, I can't accept it all...but i jolly well know that they are true...they are concrete evidence...it is almost crystal clear now...my brain has gone hay-wire...

suddenly everything is pushed to me...i dunno what they are..whether to believe them or not...Hari Raya's coming soon...i think i need to clear my mind off a bit...can.can.i'm going to pull through this one..i've never been to this part of the road...ok..i'm going to try my best...to her out there..i think you know who you are...dun try to perceive anything first...i really need to straighten out my mind...im really lost...it's nobody's fault...i'm just being tested by Him here...okiez..got to blast off and hibernate...one more thing...i hope everything will remain the same as it is...for now only...for now...I want the time to freeze!!!!

::: When the wind changes its course :::