Although there's allowance given, I still find difficulties handling my money matters. I know its all up to me to control how much I spent and stuff but some things are just necessary from the way I see it.

The only way to cut down is my own food intake. Wherever I can cut I should cut. I cannot spend freely on food anymore. I have to consider the cheapest option.

Sometimes I do think money is everything.

I find socialising a chore. Not the act of interaction with people itself but the activities that are carried out together. Just a simple meal be it lunch or dinner will have a huge impact on my wallet. That's why I feel very agitated and out of place when I'm with my rich friends. I look at them I feel damn sian. They can just watch movies, pretty much every other weekend. They can just spend how mcuh they want on food. And some don't even earn their own money la.

I feel fucking irritated la when going out with these people. It hurts but then again its obviously not their fault that they have money and want to eat good food. That's why I bo pian. I can't say anything. Reality fucking hurts. Reality enjoys taunting me. Crap.

Fuck money la. Fuck temptations.


NOTE: THE FOLLOWING HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE STUFF I MENTIONED ABOVE.

Went out with peeps from the sportsclass. Went to eat at Marina Square. The food is good la. I like the rice and the tahu goreng I think. Yeah. I enjoyed myself la even though I was feeling rather tired. The whole day I was outside. Morning saw me at school having hockey training. Followed by lunch with hockey boys. Then went to Novena to meet friends to buy birthday present for another friend. Followed by meeting with the 4/3 people for dinner. It seems like we didn't grow from secondary school. It still feels like a class and ya, pretty much like how we were last time. Its hard to believe but time just fly like that. I didn't regret coming. It really feels like home to me. :D Thanks Nicole for organizing!


Yeah I guess that's all. Shall go and rest.