wow..didn't expect my last yr in this school to be so enriching. really. altho bad stuff are happening..well i'll like to learn from them...hopefully my brain is good enuf to sustain it...hav i mentioned that im pretty bad at remembering things...in one way its good cuz then i don't hav to remember bad stuff..haha..but i don't mean to say that i dun hav any bad memories...

one request...

"please stop fighting and be happy"

yeah...im so darn sick with ppl trying to prove that they are right and their theories hold and bla bla bla...tired of looking at people fighting whether its with words, acts, bombs and what hav you...

pretty ironic..yeah today's last lesson was with miss lim and she gave out her thoughts on whats happening to the class...found most of them to be true...but can you believe it? i've forgotten what she've said...perhaps they are things that i've heard before and that means that it doesnt' have any impact thus no space for storage...oh yar..i havent got to the ironic part yet...

then i went for hmt class...man its geting pretty hot nowadays..i was so damn sleeepy...i shuldnt hav eaten a lot cuz eating makes me feel sleepy...ok so..reached there early and then sit...arghhh so sleepy!!!..hahaz..then mr senan was like joking with us...he always jokes...very nice man...but you hav to give him ur attention in class by not toking or else he would get angry...mayb not really angry but more of irritated...well i won't digress anymore...so then he was like happily joking and then said that we studetns and teachers should be happy togehter and maintain a good relationship...and man he's damn funny...i appreciate it sir..u really made my day even tho it was nearing to the end...

lahabau- dunno wads the definition ( use in sarawak)..meant to be something offensive i think...

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merepek_marhaban

sorry if you dun understand...but really he was so humorous...

hmm..recently got a few things in mind...oh manz...so now ur seeing it? no u want to be free? no im not mocking at you now...i just feel..i dunno..sad? sympathize?...well now ur in it, get out of it..i know its not simple..im not implying that its simple...nobody said it is simple...there are ways to be ''free''. you can do it in the most cruel way or u can use the least hurting one...all ways would be hurting by the way...im not goin to tell you how..this is ur problem...its best you handle it ur way cuz there might be some things which i may not know...so you said i was right...so now my advice is dun get too uptight about it...dun think of the past that much..dun start regretting..it's of no use...but of course u shuldnt be repeating this mistake in the latter part of ur life..whatever mistake that is..anyway..this is merely juz an advice..

things are getting more coincidental nowadays....learnt something new through islam..that we ppl..each of us has responsibilities..as in many many different responsibilities..towards may different people and so on..so its our duty to ''serve'' others and help them in whatever way we can...perhaps im getting to fast on it..perhaps i was overdoing it...it was all done on impulse..some of you might say that that's the worst thing that you could do...do things on impulse....well all i can say is that sometimes it is better off being followed...i was hoping really to the extend of prayin that you could see the true meaning of life..but its not within my capabilities to bring it forward to you...i want u to know some things but its not simple to express them out..its too intricate and plus...im not in any position to tell u all of them...i may hav upset you and im really sorry about it..but regret is not a substitute equation for sorry...

yar..its working..i've learn to laugh more and it made life a bot more brighter...no arguments about life sometimes being sucky...hurtful..depressing...however a little chuckle can light up ur day a little..at least...better than nothing...

i've just realize that its better to lead by example rather than giving too many pep talks..there is a sertious problem with advising people..when u give advices and pep talks..you have to make sure that you urself are following them..and make sure you dont make the mistakes that you have asked others not to...so it is probably better to talk less and show more...cus ppl are also easily influenced by other's actions...

i've come to think that many students nowadays lack the mutual respect that are supposed to be given to teachers...teachers, grown-ups...they have more experiences..yar its true that sometimes that they are wrong..no denial against that but in such cases u should just receive their thoughts and then u decide on your own whether to use them...if u find its wrong..fine..u live ur own life..nothing really wrong with that except that some things..some..are clearly wrong..clear cut...don't try to come up with new thngs to rebutt them or what so ever..what's wrong is wrong...what's right is right...one of the significance change when a toddler evolves into a young teen is that he or she is able to see what's right and wrong..if not..ur still a toddler in mind...

oh manz..first hockey match is against monk's hill..let's bring them down people...not easy...never easy...

i will spent valentines day with my hockey stick..anyway i dont celebrate valentines day...i love people everyday...

hmm..juz want to add something what brother Hatta said recently..." they are grieving about not having parents and here we are grieving about not having girlfriend" hahaz..its kind of funny...it really opened up my mind...

::: they chase what we own. we chase what they have :::