beats and peaces
Hey...was thinking about the title for this entry...thought of putting ''bits and pieces'' but then I typed ''beats and peaces"...hmm...where did that come from?
Whatever it is, the title has nothing to do with this entry...
Craps man... feeling very out of control for these few days lately... luckily the guys at work could crack some jokes...at least that keeps me sane enough to live through the days...its been rather fast...february is getting to a close soon in about a week's time...frankly I can't wait to get the JAE results... the curiosity of it kinda killing me...
Feeling rather lonely too these days....like I'm outcast or something....not that I don't have friends around me...or rather I have working colleagues... I'm starting to miss sec sch days... it's earlier than I expect it to be... before graduating, I didn't even think that I would miss my sec school... because the last year was linda bad...well,not all bad of course but....so so la...haiz...
Miss coming to school and wearing the same school uniform as other schoolmates...now I think uniform does play an important role....even though it is just something that you wear....it makes you feel attached to something...makes you feel belonged... well now I'm going to be out of uniform....I better get use to it...
But most of all, I miss CCAs....those were the very fun-filled times....oh man only if I could reverse time...
Ok...I'll stop the nonsense.
No...I'll move on to something else...a bit different...
Does money allows you to have more friends and thus more fun and activites? I'm getting pretty uptight recently because of money matters...my parents and I have clashing understandings on these things...I feel like I'm losing out comparing myself to other peeps...they get to spend on this and that while I have to earn it myself...and my parents are hinting that I should be contributing to the family....I'm like wtf? In the first place, my pay is so tiny like bird shit....and CPF will absorbed some (this I don't mind)...and whats there left for me...? Though I must say my work is not that exhausting or energy draining...but I still have to wake up early and go home only in the evening...ya...i know I shouldn't be spending all my money but hey, I'm all enough to think of all that....i'm old enough to paln my things....I'm old enough to THINK...though many think I'm foolish and stupid..well that's because they only see me on the surface...but to hell to that...
I've always been watching out on my finances since I started to move into sec school....setting aside some of my allowances and coping with some small payments...I must say the fasting month is good training...somehow, funnily, I manage to pull through those times...makes me wonder sometimes....those moments were too many to be coincidences....there'll always be something to help out....its kinda fascinating to me...and yeah those years of ''training'' kinda forming me into an accountant or something....haha...maybe I should take up one of the business courses....haha...NO. Never will I do that...money is driving me nuts, crazy and up the wall...I've had enough of such stresses on my head....
Ok...guess I'll just end here...oh ya forgot about one more thing....
I have a source for blue films..acquired such a source recently....hmm...very tempting...nah...won't do...I think I'll just forget it...but I did get to watch a violence movie...yesterday night...it was my first pretty gross and violent movie..its SAW 2...it's really interesting the storyline...with a lot of twists...very good....and the movie is saturated with the f words...there were so many of them....and yeah...its RA kind...the violence kind not the sex kind....ya...and...
There will be blood.....
Muahahahaha.... :)
I'm always unsure of the next step and that's what makes life so exciting.
Whatever it is, the title has nothing to do with this entry...
Craps man... feeling very out of control for these few days lately... luckily the guys at work could crack some jokes...at least that keeps me sane enough to live through the days...its been rather fast...february is getting to a close soon in about a week's time...frankly I can't wait to get the JAE results... the curiosity of it kinda killing me...
Feeling rather lonely too these days....like I'm outcast or something....not that I don't have friends around me...or rather I have working colleagues... I'm starting to miss sec sch days... it's earlier than I expect it to be... before graduating, I didn't even think that I would miss my sec school... because the last year was linda bad...well,not all bad of course but....so so la...haiz...
Miss coming to school and wearing the same school uniform as other schoolmates...now I think uniform does play an important role....even though it is just something that you wear....it makes you feel attached to something...makes you feel belonged... well now I'm going to be out of uniform....I better get use to it...
But most of all, I miss CCAs....those were the very fun-filled times....oh man only if I could reverse time...
Ok...I'll stop the nonsense.
No...I'll move on to something else...a bit different...
Does money allows you to have more friends and thus more fun and activites? I'm getting pretty uptight recently because of money matters...my parents and I have clashing understandings on these things...I feel like I'm losing out comparing myself to other peeps...they get to spend on this and that while I have to earn it myself...and my parents are hinting that I should be contributing to the family....I'm like wtf? In the first place, my pay is so tiny like bird shit....and CPF will absorbed some (this I don't mind)...and whats there left for me...? Though I must say my work is not that exhausting or energy draining...but I still have to wake up early and go home only in the evening...ya...i know I shouldn't be spending all my money but hey, I'm all enough to think of all that....i'm old enough to paln my things....I'm old enough to THINK...though many think I'm foolish and stupid..well that's because they only see me on the surface...but to hell to that...
I've always been watching out on my finances since I started to move into sec school....setting aside some of my allowances and coping with some small payments...I must say the fasting month is good training...somehow, funnily, I manage to pull through those times...makes me wonder sometimes....those moments were too many to be coincidences....there'll always be something to help out....its kinda fascinating to me...and yeah those years of ''training'' kinda forming me into an accountant or something....haha...maybe I should take up one of the business courses....haha...NO. Never will I do that...money is driving me nuts, crazy and up the wall...I've had enough of such stresses on my head....
Ok...guess I'll just end here...oh ya forgot about one more thing....
I have a source for blue films..acquired such a source recently....hmm...very tempting...nah...won't do...I think I'll just forget it...but I did get to watch a violence movie...yesterday night...it was my first pretty gross and violent movie..its SAW 2...it's really interesting the storyline...with a lot of twists...very good....and the movie is saturated with the f words...there were so many of them....and yeah...its RA kind...the violence kind not the sex kind....ya...and...
There will be blood.....
Muahahahaha.... :)
I'm always unsure of the next step and that's what makes life so exciting.