Sigh. Wanted to bury myself under piles of revision but couldn't bring myself to do it...aniwaez..did some so I'm not so feeling so guilty...yesterday's exam was good i suppose..got to answer almost all questions...after tt clarify answers with the teacher and realize tt i got 2 immaculate sections...so happy with myself but cant be too happy coz later it will somehow 'backfire'...anything you do muz never be in excess or too little but muz be just nice..anyway tt was for yesterdae..i've come to think tt i have already quite a few plans for e holidaes..can't tell..none of u would wanna noe anyway..learn quite a few things todae..abt life and death, hmm...think i shouldnt say cuz its kinda religous stuff..if wanna noe can ask me in person..

sigh.wanted to write a poem todae both in malay and possibly eng but somehow my mind is not in a limpid state today..wanted to put it up here..mayb some other time when i receive forays of inspirations..evrytime i wanna start writin a poem..the whisper of words will burn down my ear drums...dun wanna enunciate the person's name but i juz need to let my steam off somwhere..she was lucky not to receive a torrent of vulgarities from me..happened quite long ago though..anyway forgiven her aready...but sadly the wound is still there and its been etched..nothing can b done on her part cuz the situation now is irrevocable...then this yr got 'attacked' again but now through actions though..but not so sure of her intentions..happened n realized for quite some time also but juz wanna scribble them down as a rememberence...frm wat i see is tt she's trying to make me jealous of her? dunno if tt's e best way to put it...aniwaez..not affected at all so can take it as her efforts r futile..of course if her intention is relly to make me jealous..the reason why the fury starts to take residence inside me was tt it was getting bloody well irritating...howeva now it has stop so i'm not tt livid anymore..anyway i've alwayz try not to allow myself to show my anger or at least display them in public cuz e situation may get out of hand...well all i can say now is to leave a piece of advice, not only to her even tt if she's readin,doesnt matter whether she does r not coz tt's not the main reason for this part of the entry, but to everyone who's readin..never ever say out ur assumptions,especially when its not the truth cuz once said, the words can never ever be taken back...assumptions r meant to b kept to ur self during most of the time..only let them out if they're being asked for..

and to this intented person...there isnt a need to say sorry cuz ur forgiven..gd news eh? yeah, tt's me..wanna follow the footsteps of my prophet, to b forgiving alwayz...unfortunately...the matrix of this era is not really suitable for such a character...cuz ppl will take it for granted..anywae it aint stoppin me..written alot for today..feelin a bit happier cuz i've disembowelled it..

so now for the final step...is to display MY piece of work...i know it may not look so great to some of u but I squeezed it out of my brain myself...and i take pride in my work...

KEHIDUPAN

Kehidupan...

Anugerah dari Ilahi yang Maha Penyayang

Tidak dapat digadai oleh harta dunia

Manusia dilahirkan beriringan nafsu dan aspirasi

Yang susah dihindari

Kehidupan..

Santapan hidup berlainan-lainan rasa

Manusia tidak mempunyai kudrat

Untuk menggubal atau menggubahnya

Betapa lemahnya manusia sejagat

Kehidupan...

Taraf dan status hanya pinjaman

Kelak akan diambil semula

Manusia semuanya sama

Melainkan keimanan sseorang individu

Kehidupan...

Jalan yang beronak duri

Berpermaidani kaca,cebisan cebisan kaca yang tajam

Gunung-gunung tercegat membatu di tengah jalan

Ada yang setinggi gunung Everest

Kehidupan...

Mahu atau tidak, tiada pilihan

Harus terus berjalan

Tidak kira selambat merangkak

Atau secepat pecut

Kehidupan...

Menikam diri bukan jalan keluar

Hanya akan menambah noda di atma

Keimanan menjadi tunjang kehidupan

Luntur tunjang, lunturlah diri

Dikarang oleh: Muhd Syamil Bin Ali

So yar tt's it..( pardon me its in Malay :P)..long entry for today...haiz..