Feeling all weird lately. A few weeks ago, I had these recurrences of static sprinting through me. Felt like some electrical shock or something. For a few days I had to suffer the onset of these weird tinglings( I assure you its more than that; just that I can't find the right word at the moment). Anyway, that's the least of my concerns for now because I don't experience it anymore.


This time I didn't see it coming. I didn't expect anything much. Nevetheless, this heart seems to have a mind of its own. One moment I felt and think its okay, the next minute I'm all restless and worked up. At times its really suffocating. This thing is just exploding, puffing out all inside me. And when it happens, nothing seem to matter. The thoughts just keep ramming, coming crashing inside my head.


I don't want to expect too much lest the higher chances of greater disappointment. Mathematically, expectations are proportionate to amount of disappoinment.


Therefore, I'll just try. I don't want to leave this point thinking, fuck, I should have asked.


So what's the truth?
One sided or double?
A success or a whammy?


Crap. I ain't want history coming back chasing at me. Perhaps the front part of that history. But the remaining let me handle it. Please. Grant me this wish.