Spec Course 1
I won't say I enjoyed most of it. But that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy it at all. Being a PC was okay I guess. I did most of the stuff that I set out to do. I don't know about other platoons but I did try putting on high pressure on my guys. Occasionally it happens but what I'm not satisfied is that I don't think I had given enough of it. I find that the platoon still lack the push.
I guess it was my fault because I didn't get myself enough rest. But then again, how much time did I really have. AAR for the day starts at 2230. Ends at least an hour or so later. By the time I finished washing up its around 12. And after which I had some platoon admin stuff to do before I can finally tuck in for the night. That left me with about 4 or at most 5 hours of sleep. I know I usually did sleep that amount of hours outside camp but after a long day's work, I think I need more. Anyway, no excuses la. Next time I'll just try to get more sleep.
I felt damn tired and sleepy most of the time. And so I get irritated damn easily. And I got emo easily too.Its really unbecoming la. Something I need to work on. The course was pretty high on emotions that it reminded me of ADC. It was almost as bad. Anyway, I am just glad that I didn't fuck anybody during the course, be it a CLT or cadet. In fact, I'm the one who felt damn fucked.
Whatever reason it is, its just fucked up.
I do remember that I once said that these days, not only are the cadets fucked up, the teachers are too. Don't worry, CLTs have just joined the club. At one point of time during the course, this statement came into mind: Whatever that can go wrong, had gone wrong. I don't want to elaborate on this la. Just something to take note. Be discreet when talking about the bad side of the CLTs. Watch what,where,when and how you say things.
But the course sort off ended well. God granted my 'last' wish. I couldn't have asked for anything more.
For the course, I think I pity the admin most. I was talking to JY about it one night. We agreed that it was not their fault that the cock ups occur. Its like the whole lot of them are inexperienced. Even though XR has done admin at CF before and did it successfully(as said by Clement), I still think they are not prepared for this one. And its like they are being put in a difficult position: having to meet the standards of the experienced admin members of previous courses but not given enough guidance. Its like being put in a "lan-lan" position. And I guess I really have to apologize for causing the artillery fire on the admin team that night. I didn't mean it of course. All I said was that if the font size could be bigger, it would be easier for PCs. Little did I know such a small comment could trigger to a domino effect of arrow shootings to admin team. Like seriously what the fuck la...its just about the fucking font size. Bloody fuckers...sensitive to oneself but not to others.
This just highlights another point regarding teamwork: Fucking understand other people's position. Yes, people make mistakes and at times it cannot be helped. Just fucking accept it and cover each other's backside la...where's the fucking teamwork when all you want to do is put down others and defend yourself? One word: Self-centred.
I don't know why but I feel emotionally unhealthy attending the course. Somehow I can feel the aura of bad traits like egoism, jealousy, envy, power hungry and etc. And frankly speaking I felt the influence.
Nevertheless, I had seen some good stuff. One vivid one would be the interview process for award winners. The cadets really showed thier passion for NCC to the extent of crying. Boys crying huh. Frankly speaking, I was touched la. Somehow these cadets showed that NCC still produce people who are passionate about what they do. And yeah, I hope these guys will carry on with the same attitude throughou the years. And I didn't expect H to remember what I said to the cadets on the first day, "touch your heart and ask yourself, if you have done your best then the rest doesn't matter."
2Sgt. 3Sgt. SnrCpl.
What the fuck, they are just ranks. You still can make a difference.
I guess it was my fault because I didn't get myself enough rest. But then again, how much time did I really have. AAR for the day starts at 2230. Ends at least an hour or so later. By the time I finished washing up its around 12. And after which I had some platoon admin stuff to do before I can finally tuck in for the night. That left me with about 4 or at most 5 hours of sleep. I know I usually did sleep that amount of hours outside camp but after a long day's work, I think I need more. Anyway, no excuses la. Next time I'll just try to get more sleep.
I felt damn tired and sleepy most of the time. And so I get irritated damn easily. And I got emo easily too.Its really unbecoming la. Something I need to work on. The course was pretty high on emotions that it reminded me of ADC. It was almost as bad. Anyway, I am just glad that I didn't fuck anybody during the course, be it a CLT or cadet. In fact, I'm the one who felt damn fucked.
Whatever reason it is, its just fucked up.
I do remember that I once said that these days, not only are the cadets fucked up, the teachers are too. Don't worry, CLTs have just joined the club. At one point of time during the course, this statement came into mind: Whatever that can go wrong, had gone wrong. I don't want to elaborate on this la. Just something to take note. Be discreet when talking about the bad side of the CLTs. Watch what,where,when and how you say things.
But the course sort off ended well. God granted my 'last' wish. I couldn't have asked for anything more.
For the course, I think I pity the admin most. I was talking to JY about it one night. We agreed that it was not their fault that the cock ups occur. Its like the whole lot of them are inexperienced. Even though XR has done admin at CF before and did it successfully(as said by Clement), I still think they are not prepared for this one. And its like they are being put in a difficult position: having to meet the standards of the experienced admin members of previous courses but not given enough guidance. Its like being put in a "lan-lan" position. And I guess I really have to apologize for causing the artillery fire on the admin team that night. I didn't mean it of course. All I said was that if the font size could be bigger, it would be easier for PCs. Little did I know such a small comment could trigger to a domino effect of arrow shootings to admin team. Like seriously what the fuck la...its just about the fucking font size. Bloody fuckers...sensitive to oneself but not to others.
This just highlights another point regarding teamwork: Fucking understand other people's position. Yes, people make mistakes and at times it cannot be helped. Just fucking accept it and cover each other's backside la...where's the fucking teamwork when all you want to do is put down others and defend yourself? One word: Self-centred.
I don't know why but I feel emotionally unhealthy attending the course. Somehow I can feel the aura of bad traits like egoism, jealousy, envy, power hungry and etc. And frankly speaking I felt the influence.
Nevertheless, I had seen some good stuff. One vivid one would be the interview process for award winners. The cadets really showed thier passion for NCC to the extent of crying. Boys crying huh. Frankly speaking, I was touched la. Somehow these cadets showed that NCC still produce people who are passionate about what they do. And yeah, I hope these guys will carry on with the same attitude throughou the years. And I didn't expect H to remember what I said to the cadets on the first day, "touch your heart and ask yourself, if you have done your best then the rest doesn't matter."
2Sgt. 3Sgt. SnrCpl.
What the fuck, they are just ranks. You still can make a difference.