Its falling shits.
Like what the old folks say, life is full of ups and downs.
Fasting starts tomorrow. It feels too quick to be true. Some things are meant to be done while the rest are supposed to be left untouched. Anyway, life should go on as per normal despite the fasting period. How hard can it be right? Just don't eat and drink what...Yup it is easy till you find out more and till you experience the different blows of things that attack your will to continue fasting till dusk. Fasting is not only about restaining oneself from drinking and eating. Its about restaining from doing bad stuff too.
Went down to HQ to conduct some test for cadets today. Well, same old shit again. This time it was kinda kick ass but somehow I don't see the teachers daring enough to do their bullshit stuff that much. They did the usual things they do but not in full steam. And I find that all you need to do was to be on firm ground and not get swayed when confronted. It was because we have these kinda people in HQ that many CLTs had their assed covered. At least they(the SAF personnel) understand our position. I'm glad that at least there are people out there who still cares about CLTs. Somehow I feel like we are more of brothers to each other helping one another. I guess that's the silver lining.
I supposed I was right all along. The possibility that CSS NCC is coming down is pretty much running high. I'm not being a sadist or what but all I want is that these people will really open their eyes and wake up from their dream. Hah...Gold unit...its pretty difficult to find one genuine one these days.
Have you ever felt the kind of dissapointment that followed suit after failing in something when you actually did all you can? All those effort that you put in. All those time that you burn. All gone to waste. It creates a pretty deep wound. You fight hard for that something you love and eventually its to no vail. If you're telling me to press on, then I must say my time here is not going to last that long. But reality can't be that cruel right? Of course. That's because reality is much more cruel. It doesn't stop there and here comes the showdown: the dog(s) bite(s) the hand(s) of the feeder(s).
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And more ???
Dey, we are trying to help you here. But what do you give us? Lack of enthusiasm is one to name the few. Unwillingness to allow us to help. Dang. WTF are you trying to say? I am noob can? And the biggest loophole. You don't trust us. -___-" Fucking waste of my time.
I occasionally receive this kinda treatment. The things I worked damn hard for don't produce the desired results. But for the things I do with moderate effort I get better results.
Somehow I don't feel comfortable wearing NCC No.4 outside. Different people have different views on people who don on the uniform I'm wearing( SAF people excluded ). Its funny because just today I encounter to incidents.
Incident #1: Board the train heading to YCK at JE. While on the way, received sms to move to 1st cabin. While making my way, I can feel and noticed that people are looking at me. Its kinda embarassing but hell I don't know what they are thinking. Most likely is because they rarely see people with this kinda uniform. Its not a common thing to see CLTs wearing uniform outside. That I know.
Incident #2: Was at the interchange going home when some lady approached me and asked me about all kinds of financial stuff. Then at the back of my mind I know she thought I was some guy from NS or something. Her first question was: When you ORD? Then after that she keep on asking questions about poly and stuff. Probably just to cover her paiseh-ness. LOL..then after a few seconds, another guy came and he also ask similar things. Haiz...embarassing moment for me again. People are looking ah...LOL...fine...I'll just leave the matter here.
Like what the title says, its all coming. My results were just released. My GPA did not budge much. It increased by a fraction. Not that noticeable. Still trying to push it over the 3.5 line. What saddens me is that the subjects I aimed to get A got a B. And it certainly frustrates the hell out of me. Haiz...nevermind. Shall keep pushing. With ______ gone, I shall do abit more for my studies.
Let the good people stay. Let the evil ones perish in the deepest part of hell.
Fasting starts tomorrow. It feels too quick to be true. Some things are meant to be done while the rest are supposed to be left untouched. Anyway, life should go on as per normal despite the fasting period. How hard can it be right? Just don't eat and drink what...Yup it is easy till you find out more and till you experience the different blows of things that attack your will to continue fasting till dusk. Fasting is not only about restaining oneself from drinking and eating. Its about restaining from doing bad stuff too.
Went down to HQ to conduct some test for cadets today. Well, same old shit again. This time it was kinda kick ass but somehow I don't see the teachers daring enough to do their bullshit stuff that much. They did the usual things they do but not in full steam. And I find that all you need to do was to be on firm ground and not get swayed when confronted. It was because we have these kinda people in HQ that many CLTs had their assed covered. At least they(the SAF personnel) understand our position. I'm glad that at least there are people out there who still cares about CLTs. Somehow I feel like we are more of brothers to each other helping one another. I guess that's the silver lining.
I supposed I was right all along. The possibility that CSS NCC is coming down is pretty much running high. I'm not being a sadist or what but all I want is that these people will really open their eyes and wake up from their dream. Hah...Gold unit...its pretty difficult to find one genuine one these days.
Have you ever felt the kind of dissapointment that followed suit after failing in something when you actually did all you can? All those effort that you put in. All those time that you burn. All gone to waste. It creates a pretty deep wound. You fight hard for that something you love and eventually its to no vail. If you're telling me to press on, then I must say my time here is not going to last that long. But reality can't be that cruel right? Of course. That's because reality is much more cruel. It doesn't stop there and here comes the showdown: the dog(s) bite(s) the hand(s) of the feeder(s).
???
And more ???
Dey, we are trying to help you here. But what do you give us? Lack of enthusiasm is one to name the few. Unwillingness to allow us to help. Dang. WTF are you trying to say? I am noob can? And the biggest loophole. You don't trust us. -___-" Fucking waste of my time.
I occasionally receive this kinda treatment. The things I worked damn hard for don't produce the desired results. But for the things I do with moderate effort I get better results.
Somehow I don't feel comfortable wearing NCC No.4 outside. Different people have different views on people who don on the uniform I'm wearing( SAF people excluded ). Its funny because just today I encounter to incidents.
Incident #1: Board the train heading to YCK at JE. While on the way, received sms to move to 1st cabin. While making my way, I can feel and noticed that people are looking at me. Its kinda embarassing but hell I don't know what they are thinking. Most likely is because they rarely see people with this kinda uniform. Its not a common thing to see CLTs wearing uniform outside. That I know.
Incident #2: Was at the interchange going home when some lady approached me and asked me about all kinds of financial stuff. Then at the back of my mind I know she thought I was some guy from NS or something. Her first question was: When you ORD? Then after that she keep on asking questions about poly and stuff. Probably just to cover her paiseh-ness. LOL..then after a few seconds, another guy came and he also ask similar things. Haiz...embarassing moment for me again. People are looking ah...LOL...fine...I'll just leave the matter here.
Like what the title says, its all coming. My results were just released. My GPA did not budge much. It increased by a fraction. Not that noticeable. Still trying to push it over the 3.5 line. What saddens me is that the subjects I aimed to get A got a B. And it certainly frustrates the hell out of me. Haiz...nevermind. Shall keep pushing. With ______ gone, I shall do abit more for my studies.
Let the good people stay. Let the evil ones perish in the deepest part of hell.
11:58 pm
Hey Syamil, your post makes sense:
1. Learnt to count my blessings - the situation cld have been worse - if it's not bad engh alrdy. But still, yeah; who knows, could have been worse.
2. Yeah, I agree tt it feels good to have pple understanding us - pple nowadays are so selfish tt they treat us as some kinda dog or what; all they think about is themselves.
When things are done nicely, we're left out from the praises & etc; when things go wrong, we suffer in full "wrath". Oh well, life of being a leader. top
1:26 pm
Yup...anyway, I believe if our intentions are good it will be returned the same, if not now, later. :) top
3:51 pm
I hope so too.
"So disillusioned". top