Dark secrets.
Skeletons in the closet.
Potential problems just like time bombs. Waiting to blow up. Don't know whether time is enough. Doing whatever I can.
What a crappy feeling. At a very wrong time. Hell. How I wish I could just go and appear offline for a while from life. Just like MSN. How I wish. Wish and wish and wish. Nothing but just wishes.
On the side of me. Who?I need a f____. Fill it up yourself.
1st paper slain today. Tough meat for me. Anyway next paper would be the coming Tuesday. Math!!! Lol. So far my grades for this is improving. From B to B+. Don't know about this semester. Hopefully up one grade to A. Yea. A. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA......
Been going to Esplanade library to study for the past few days. I find it nice to study there. For a little peace and quietness, its not a bad option.
Don't knwo why but I've been feeling a little loss. haha...maybe too many things happening at this span of time. But I guess that was what I wished for. A more happening life. Anyway, I think this is just the beginning. Come 1st week of September, its all gonna get more. 2 camps back to back. Should be able to survive. Hockey camp first ensued by NCC camp at HQ. Brunei friends coming down. A week of fun I hope. Cause I think I badly need it. hahahaz....
Watched the show Putri yesterday. Find Nora to be kinda cute. She's married by the way. LOL.
And recently, I find that popular car manufacturers are kinda disappointing where car designs are concern. Look at Mitsubishi. Their new Lancer is some what like the Galant. Though I still find it okay. And their Colt series are nothing magnificent. As for Honda, their 2008 Accord is not as solid looking as the current Euro R. Somehow, I find the less popular or rather "cheaper" cars to be better looking(exterior). The likes of Satria Neo, Gen2(I know its old, came out in late 2004) and Hyundai is coming up with cool cars too. The one that's already rolling out on the streets would be the new Tuscani. Much, much sportier looking than the version before.
And the soon to be released would be i30 which I find is a pretty hot hatchback. Its the trend nowadays anyway. Hatchbacks...Cheap. Simple. Practical. :)
Dunk my last project today. Phew man it was all tiring, frustrating and what not. I know I shouldn't be complaining because other people may be carrying a heavier burden. Anyway, just happy that its all over. Hope that my grades won't go down because of them. So now about less than 2 weeks to first paper. Chiong ah!!!!
But for now, TV first. HEH. Honour and Passion!!! :)
Check out this song. Its nice.
Kiroro - Mirai EHora ashimoto wo mitegoranKore ga anata no ayumu michiHora mae wo mitegoranAre ga anata no mirai
Haha ga kureta takusan no yasashisaAi wo idaite ayume to kurikaeshitaAno toki wa mada osanakute imi nado shiranaiSonna watashi no te wo nigiriIssho ni ayundekita
Yume wa itsumo sora takaku aru karaTodokanakute kowai ne dakedo oitsuzukeru noJibun no SUTOORII dakara koso akirametakunaiFuan ni naru to te wo nigiriIssho ni ayundekita
** sono yasashi wo toki ni wa iyagariHanareta haha e sunao ni narezu
* repeat
** repeat
* repeat
Hora ashimoto wo mitegoranKore ga anata no ayumu michiHora mae wo mitegoranAre ga anata no mirai
Mirai e mukatte yukkuri to aruite yukou
***
To The Future
Look! Look underfoot
This is your path to walkLook! Look at what’s before you
That over there is your future My mother gave me much kindnessWhile embracing love, I returned to my dreamsI was still a child then, and didn’t understand the significance whenShe held my hand and we walked togetherDreams are always sky high andthough fearful, we still continue to reach for themI should know this story because I never gave upAlthough I was uneasy, we walked together At times, I hated that kindness,yet I would become weak when separated from her Look! Look underfootThis is your path to walkLook!Look at what’s before youThat over there is your future
At times, I hated that kindness,yet I would become weak when separated from her
Look! Look underfootThis is your path to walkLook! Look at what’s before youThat over there is your futureLook!Look underfootThis is your path to walkLook! Look at what’s before youThat over there is your future
Face your future,and slowly approach it
WOW. Monday, August 13, 2007 |
Ermm....ok. I know I just publish a post just a few minutes ago but then I think, God had made my life much easier.
I'M MOST PROBABLY OUT OF THE SSC! LOLX... (READ: MOST PROBABLY I'M GOING HOCKEY CAMP!)
Just got a call a few minutes ago saying there are limited places for instructors. And most likely I will not be included in the list as I registered late and so on. Oh well. It doesn't really matter to me anyway.
Alright...I guess I shall not rejoice too soon. Nothing is absolutely confirmed yet. And I still have the exams to plough through. And I think I'm screwed for tomorrow's lab test. Jia lat...
HQ or
TP?
NCC or
Hockey?
2 choices.
2 gut feelings.
2 desires.
But only
1 decision.
FUCK. By far this is one of the worse choices I've to make. How I wish "2 me" exists.
I've made up my mind actually. Though I really, really feel heavy-hearted. I'll go for SSC at HQ, and I would like to emphasize again, with a heavy heart. I know I have to go for SSC. Because I haven't been to one yet although I'm already SCLT. And further more, I have to be there to monitor the CSS NCC guys. You can say its my responsibility to be there. And also of course, not forgetting my friends who will be there. Its a time for us to catch up with each other and enjoy ourselves. But...also, I haven't been to a hockey camp before. What more with TP's hockey team. And also I haven't overnight at TP before. It's also an opportunity to bond with my teammates and also the girls team(hehes :) ). I heard that there'll be night walk. A guy with a girl partner. Hmm...sounds nice and attractive. LOL. But sadly, its an opportunity I have to miss. Haiz... I'll miss the camp. The people. Haiz...why must it end up like this???I'M TRULY SORRY if I can't make it la. Because, somehow it is still not confirmed whether I'm selected to be in SSC camp or not.
Another thing I'm afraid of is that going to SSC will only waste my time or make me feel less happy. Well you know how cock up it can be. I just hope nothing bad will happen during the camp. Haiz...
Is it worth my sacrifice?
Today hit off pretty well. Pretty being the operative word. Later I explain why, though you might have guess it. Woke up feeling a little refresh and good. Studied a bit for dynamics test tomorrow and yeah, I did what I planned out to do. Wanted to do a bit more but then had to go out at around 12 plus to catch NDP live!!! Yeah, i went to watch it. Thanks to Clement who had an extra ticket. So yeah. From the start already, I saw a few eye candies. Its expected I suppose because its a public holiday. Met Clement at JE. After which we met RX and Sherman at City Hall. We went to watch the Swiss Band performance. Everywhere was packed with people. Oh ya, we were on the way to Esplanade at some part of the Citylink when I saw 1 girl wearing TP Business School t-shirt. Ok, nevermind. Then when we walked further down, I saw another 2. And by the time we reach somewhere near esplanade itself, I was greeted with a massive group of them! The thing is, I was wearing TP's Sports Club shirt! Confirm some of them saw me. LOL. Anyway, nevermind la...what are the chances right? haha...So hang around for awhile before SB made their appearance. When they march in, some of them whom we know giggled. LOLX. We are your loyal supporters okay...Already got some people have special interest in 1 or 2 of you people. Haha...Ooops. I hope that wasn't too obvious. Saw some 'high' personnel people from HQ there. Hmm...scandal? No comments. HAHA. Mannaged to watch the other performances like the precision drills and Cheerobics. Okay la, because of some inconsiderate people, I didn't get to see much. But at that point I've had my share of ete candies so it was still okay. Hehes...
So finally made our way to NDP! When we arrived, we already sniped some more targets. Doesn't matter if you get it. Just know that sometimes ignorance is bliss. :) But then I must say, we spotted this pretty lady AF officer! Wohooo!!! UP a gazillion levels ah! lol. Hmm...I shall make her my inspiration and role model. She got gold IPPT ok...don't play play. Anyway, Clement, if you're reading this, you know what you should do ar...haha..I'll be waiting. :DThe initial part was nice. A lot of so called the normal stuff had to be changed. Like what you see in previous NDPs are not exactly the same. Witness first view of heli-s manueveres. Seeing them reminds me of Brunei trip. The sound of chopping air to the ripples of wind. The surge of beoming a pilot suddenly resurrected again. Haha... Other things were more or less the same. All ended at around 8 plus. Squeezed are way out. It was really hectic. People shoivng pushing and stuff. Be it Singaproeans or not. Haiz...some people are just either too impatient or not taught about moral and ethics. :( Sad la... And just something off my mind. I am DAMN SENSITIVE to SMELL. I abhore too strong a smell what more if its not a good odour. I'm not discriminating. I'm not agianst any race or what-so-ever. I just hate the SMELL. Argh!!! I will be irritated to the extent that I might just let the F word slip off my mouth. Then while walking out, some guy approached me from the back. He said something about looking at my goodie bag or something. After that he said he want it and offered some coins as payment. I declined and just let him have it since we were in some sort of other people's way. He is like mentally handicapped that's why I wasn't too concern about it. But his appearance really surprised me. Then we went to JE to have a meal. Well, a few more chicks there I suppose. :D And then shortly after went home. Oh ya, to the netball girl, sorry la. Was just joking nia...LOL...
HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! :) Is it because I'm just ugly or is it I'm handsome. I want to say I'm ugly, I think there are other people who looks worse. I want to say I'm handsome, I reckon I'm that charming. But why the 2nd look or rather the few looks. Those eyes. What are they saying? Sometimes I really wonder. What is going on through their heads when they see me. I can't help being too self concious. Argh...F it.
