Had fun bbq-ing with my GLs on the eve of new year. And then some of us spent the night at Pasir Ris park. Nothing much la. I'm just glad I enjoyed myself.

Been busy lately. Made myself involve in the coming Open House and Engine school's orientation in April. Tiring also. Am exposed to politics and the likes. I hope to learn alot from here. Especially when this event is rather large scale. And I am also thankful that there are a few good people at least. I mean, if they are fucked up, then I wouldn't still be around in the committee.




Now I think I understand how Kenny felt 4 to 5 years ago. The time when he said being at the top feels rather lonely. It is really lonely up here. Decisions are in your hands. The steering wheel is within your control. I guess I've realized what is the essence of a leader; to be brave enough to decide and face the consequences thereafter be it good or bad, alone or with other people.

I sincerely hope my committee are not putting false fronts. I really hope they support me. Those people that I really trust, I just hope that they won't disappoint me.

I will be facing the big questions in a few days time. And at that time, I hope I can fuck that person upside down instead of the other way around.

My heart was raging just now.
And it still does.

I don't know why but I just feel like going for some hurting spree.



God bless myself and those around me.