Prelims are here...well left about 1 more week +...frankly speaking I'm not aiming to go for the first 3 months in jc..anyway shan't talk about studies...
I've come across with more people these days...and it seems to show me what really is going on around in the world....
I realized, people do change...drastically. And they seem to carry out activities which I thought they wouldn't. It surprises me when I get to know about it. And these activities are so called unhealthy and morally wrong...but at times these people will arouse the desire in me to follow suit...it really bothers me when I am confronted with these desires. It is like i am being left out and i have not tasted what teenagers are supposedly tasting nowadays. its like peer pressure. sometimes I feel, i'm just too following-the-law kinda guy. But if I were to follow...its wrong..its just not apt...my job is now a student like what mr quek used to say.So im required to study. But I'm not that rigid. I allow compromises...Anyway, I see these friends of mine as those who have died in battle. the fallen ones...its sad when i recall them and what they had done...
During the holidays last week, my grandma was hospitalised. nothing really serious....when my mom suggested that I go visit her, I did. i'm not going to make the same mistake. before my uncle passed away, she told me to go and see him in hospital. But i didn't. so when he passed away, I felt tinge of regret. He's a chinese and i thought it would be good if i could talk to him more often. But fate doesn't allow it. I'm not saying my grandma is going to pass away or what(touch wood :) ) but its just that...I'm playing safe...better be safe than sorry...
So after that, my grandma was discharged and she stayed at my house temporarily. And...that is a problem...not that I blame her for it but...theres' a problem...she's going to have my room and I would have to shift most of my stuff somewhere else....this happening during prelims? Its kinda irritating...haiz...plus I have some bloody ulcers...and have problems talking....just hope that when the real "O" level comes, i'll be ok.
So yesterday night, a distant relative of mine came to visit my grandma. My distant cousins didn't come...only their parents and grandparents. when i saw them, it reminded of the crush I had with one of my distant cousin. I was really young back then..hahaz..its kinda funny when I recall about it...in fact..I think i forgot even which one was it...
Anyway when they were about to leave, the father wished me all the best....that's really unexpected...anyway, I have a dream to fulfill and the path is clear...
::: Evil flourishes when the good men do nothing :::
I've come across with more people these days...and it seems to show me what really is going on around in the world....
I realized, people do change...drastically. And they seem to carry out activities which I thought they wouldn't. It surprises me when I get to know about it. And these activities are so called unhealthy and morally wrong...but at times these people will arouse the desire in me to follow suit...it really bothers me when I am confronted with these desires. It is like i am being left out and i have not tasted what teenagers are supposedly tasting nowadays. its like peer pressure. sometimes I feel, i'm just too following-the-law kinda guy. But if I were to follow...its wrong..its just not apt...my job is now a student like what mr quek used to say.So im required to study. But I'm not that rigid. I allow compromises...Anyway, I see these friends of mine as those who have died in battle. the fallen ones...its sad when i recall them and what they had done...
During the holidays last week, my grandma was hospitalised. nothing really serious....when my mom suggested that I go visit her, I did. i'm not going to make the same mistake. before my uncle passed away, she told me to go and see him in hospital. But i didn't. so when he passed away, I felt tinge of regret. He's a chinese and i thought it would be good if i could talk to him more often. But fate doesn't allow it. I'm not saying my grandma is going to pass away or what(touch wood :) ) but its just that...I'm playing safe...better be safe than sorry...
So after that, my grandma was discharged and she stayed at my house temporarily. And...that is a problem...not that I blame her for it but...theres' a problem...she's going to have my room and I would have to shift most of my stuff somewhere else....this happening during prelims? Its kinda irritating...haiz...plus I have some bloody ulcers...and have problems talking....just hope that when the real "O" level comes, i'll be ok.
So yesterday night, a distant relative of mine came to visit my grandma. My distant cousins didn't come...only their parents and grandparents. when i saw them, it reminded of the crush I had with one of my distant cousin. I was really young back then..hahaz..its kinda funny when I recall about it...in fact..I think i forgot even which one was it...
Anyway when they were about to leave, the father wished me all the best....that's really unexpected...anyway, I have a dream to fulfill and the path is clear...
::: Evil flourishes when the good men do nothing :::