Yep. Will be away virtually for a while till I get my com back up and running(i hope, instead of just walking).

I'm wondering. Of some things which are rather heavy and a burden to the head.



Its a new environment. And somehow I feel its gonna be a lil worse than NCC. I suppose of all the hundreds of students, I am chosen because of a reason.



Things are heating up a lil here. Frankly, I don't see why it has to be this way. And there's a lot of issues to straighten up.


As the head, I need to keep cool. That's the only way to keep things under control.



Leading with Temperance. That's my style. ;)

In need for some reformatting of brain. Anyone can provide me with such service?

As a leader, you have to be strong even when you're weak. Sometimes, it's important to pretend. Somehow it will turn out the way you visualize it to be.





BE strong.

Something that dawned on me last night. After facing some "difficulties" in some areas of living on this fragile world, I finally realized I'm some fucking weakling whining about why life is so imperfect. And, yeah, that's the reason for the inverted commas guarding the word "difficulties".

Its nothing la, compared to the people in China who are affected by the earthquake. Compared to the people in Mynmar suffering the after effects of cyclone Nagris. Compared to the starving people in Cambodia who has to cope with the increase of prices of rice by like 3 times?

Ya...just some reflections. Be thankful eh.

Something random. Was at the toilet at Toa Payoh Central this afternoon, on the way home from work. I was doing my business and this faucking arse SOB was doing the up down action. WTF right? Have some respect for yourself can? Its a public toilet for god's sake. I can't believe I actually lived through that moment. Plus the toilet reeks of shaaaiiit. Lucky no need to pay 10cents. I will confirm KBKB.

dif·fi·cult
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adj.
1. Hard to do or accomplish; demanding considerable effort or skill; arduous: "To entertain is far more difficult than to enlighten" Anthony Burgess. See Synonyms at hard.
2. Hard to endure; trying: fell upon difficult times.
3. Hard to comprehend or solve: a difficult puzzle.
4. Hard to please, satisfy, or manage: a difficult child.
5. Hard to persuade or convince; stubborn.

[Extracted from http://www.thefreedictionary.com/difficult]

Don't believe the meaning. It's from a free dictionary anyway. Dare not to believe it?

Yep. That's what I felt after eating the pasta and 1 slice of Sarpino's Pizza(in fact, it seems that my stomach takes in lesser food these days). Had a mini celebration for the May birthday boys and also to mark the end of our OCP. But surely the friendships and bond we have will continue and the memories we share are pretty good to say the least. One statement I have to say. I enojoyed myself very much. :)


Today was a pretty good day.


Summary of the week: Going through some sort of emotional roller coster. Had similar experience before. Let's just say that this time round, I hope I won't make the same mistakes again.


Ouh ya, from the brief conversation I had with my supervisor over the phone this afternoon, I realized how I hate people who stereotype. I ask him whether if it's okay that I take a week off for some camp. And his reply was something along the lines of "no no no. I heard this kind of reasons a lot of times already". I was so damn turn off by his attitude that I had no mood to actually fight for the leave. KNN. Its not like as if I'm lying to him about the camp or what. If he wants an official excuse letter I can produce one for him. And I've already asked my supervisor over at the company and he gave the green light. So I don't really see what's the problem.


Anyway, the camp I'm refering to is Spec Course 2. So ya, I can't go for it. I guess the next nearest camp would be senior spec. We'll see how it goes. One more thing, I would love to say this. That ****(person above) has just live up to his name.


I'll stop here. Too tired already. Need sleep.





So close, yet so far.

That's what happened to me this morning at approx. 0245 hrs. And damn it I couldn't get back to sleep. I was like a 'half-drunk' person, unable to determine which is reality and which is just a dream. 2 thoughts of things were responsible for the attack. Well, I won't go into that. It doesn't matter that much.

My point is, those things/thoughts were so powerful that they actually set me awake despite me being shagged for the day.

Cranky.

That's my current mood for now.


I need my weekends.
Free from stress.
Free from obligations.
In short and in my terms, free from CRAP.


Now I'm the one needing the smiles.

It was a pretty good movie. I agree that its a tad too long but hey, its the kind of movie that I don't mind watching again. It brought to my attention the art of engineering. TOTALLY COOL MAN! :) Not to mention worthy.

I guess its enough of playtime for the time being. Have to start working out things. I still stick to my stand. Yeah, I shall adopt that position.

Felt my balls evaporized. Crap.

Anyway, I think its enough for me to make it through the days ahead. Don't know how long it'll last.


I'm not even close to being an Ironman. Haiz. Sian.

Moved around alot during the weekend. Kinda sian la...lucky this morning got to sleep more. Slept at 2 plus to wrap someone's present. But it paid off la. Happy with what I did. :D


Was kinda emo just now. Kept thinking of a lot of things. Disappointment about myself and stuff. But I'm ok now. Things look a lil brighter.


In the end, felt kinda happy la. But this month poses a lot of challenges. From school mainly. And people. And myself. Haiz...just got to hold myself I guess.


I've come to a conclusion. I will collect back all the values that I used to stand for. I suppose values are the guiding lights along the road to wherever I want to go. I realized I had lost them for a while. And it lead my life into crashes.


Let me pass this test. Yeah. The test of life.


P.S: Man U vs West Ham match was totally AWESOME!!! I like Tevez's score the best! :D

Ever felt working with the knowledge of not getting monteray values in return? Well, I'm getting the chance to. I'm not complaining la but it just sucks going to 'work' knowing that you are not going to get paid. I think it feels much worse than a bangla(no offence).

I guess all I can do is to adjust my mindset. Knock my own jelly.

Even though there's no salary for my internship, I'm pretty glad that I landed with this choice because almost everything else seems fine. Surprisingly, getting to and returning from work is not as dreadful as I thought it would be. The people there are great. My supervisor is pretty caring despite being busy with his stuff. And somehow, I'm starting to enjoy my work there. It has only been 2 weeks there but I'm already getting use to the environment. All I hope for now is actually more work to be filled during my hours there. If not the time will pass damn bloody slowly. And then sleepiness sets in. That's the worse part as far as I'm concern.

Yeah. No money back(praying really really hard that they change policy half way >.<). But I'm expecting at least good grades, fruitful and lasting experience and an enjoyable time there. At least give me some of these, I'm a happy man.

Kinda packed for the weekend. I need more sleep. ZZZzzzzZZZzzzZZZZzzZZZzzz